Ed Recovery - Blog Posts

i keep getting ed stuff for no reason on this app when i do not interact with those people at all and keep blocking them. tumblr can you stop please im just a fat mf trying to exist in this world without someone telling me that im an obese unlovable bitch and that i need to get to 90 pounds. like okay you guys have fun killing yourselves over not being able to fit into a child size (lighthearted) (kind of not)

btw i literally have a binging disorder (bed) and frequently go into binging episodes. i am similar yet opposite to yall but please can this app stop forcing me to look at 7h1nsp0 (replace 7, 1, 0 with t, i, o respectively). i love my thunder thighs dont yall bitches steal my thunder.

anyways for anyone trying to recover from an ed i love you ill give you so many kisses. mwah

Me when you can actually notice my weight loss 🙏🙏🙏

Context: TW for past ED

I have struggled with a BED for almost 5 years of my life, and I have currently been in recovery. It’s not even really recovery because my therapist refuses to acknowledge the fact that I have a BED. I have been eating more healthy foods and have avoided my trigger foods (icing, candies, peanut butter, etc). To actually see that I am actually getting better and to hear it from other people makes me so happy, my goal is to be at a healthy weight and lifestyle and to never binge again.

hi, I'm Via!! this is my new intro post!!

-I was born in August 2008, and I'll graduate class of 2027.

-I'm far too inactive on here, my Instagram is @/mellogore.

-I'll be moots with anybody, literally anybody.

favourites!!

•video game: Life is Strange (s1, Before the Storm, and s2).

•artists: Nicole Dollanganger, Taylor Swift, and McKenna Grace. bands: Panucci's Pizza and Twenty One Pilots.

•televison shows: My Mad Fat Diary, Big Bang Theory, Skins, and a plethera of cartoons.

•films: Ginger Snaps 2: Unleashed, Superbad, Star Wars prequels, misc og Barbie films.

-if you want to be moots for fandom reasons, please skip this next part. I do not condone self-harm or eating disorders in anyway, and my page will be used to recover from by eating disorder and joke about my self-harm.

*requested organisations: National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA), National Alliance for Eating Disorders, OA (overeaters anonymous).

*for background, I've been dealing with the binge eating subtype of bulimia since 2017. I will not be going into detail of my development.

*again, this page will NOT be used to promote eating disorders in anyway, this is me documenting my recovery. I do not promote disordered eating behaviors, and my Insta dms are always open for people who need them. my page is open to anybody, no matter where they are in their ED journey.

(this is the part I want fandom moots to skip).

*lw- 82pounds (aged twelve),

*hw- 160pounds (aged thirteen),

*cw- 130pounds,

*gw- 120pounds.

*I am trying to lose weight healthily, while putting on muscle and recovering from my eating disorder. please no ana tips and only venting.

thank you for reading!! I hope you're all doing well!

-via gray, 01•16•25.

If any of you likes to use this kind of stuff, I made a calorie tracker for this year's April 💞

So if you're currently in recovery, you'll be able to see your progress (remember that forcing yourself is not good. Take it one step at a time)

“Maybe I should just try the ingredients on their own first,” I think, imagining myself blankly staring at the wall while chewing a dry piece of lettuce in my apartment in total silence

Being a picky eater as an adult is so hard because I’m TRYING to expand my pallet, but every time I look up a recipe it’s like “this meal’s so quick and easy! It only takes 3 1/2 hours of prep, 6 hours of cook time, and 45 minutes to plate :) There are fifty ingredients, half of which you’ve literally never had in your life :) so if you don’t like this recipe or you forget to make it, I guess you’ll just have to throw out $50 worth of food that you have literally no other use for!! Have fun, super easy for new cooks, super fun and easy and quick :))))”

Being a picky eater as an adult is so hard because I’m TRYING to expand my pallet, but every time I look up a recipe it’s like “this meal’s so quick and easy! It only takes 3 1/2 hours of prep, 6 hours of cook time, and 45 minutes to plate :) There are fifty ingredients, half of which you’ve literally never had in your life :) so if you don’t like this recipe or you forget to make it, I guess you’ll just have to throw out $50 worth of food that you have literally no other use for!! Have fun, super easy for new cooks, super fun and easy and quick :))))”

*eating disorder recovery montage set to All Star by Smash Mouth*

This close to taking all of my mom's diet books and burn them.

Anyone wanna join

5/12/2025

A bagel with mixed berry cream cheese. And a single chicken strip. I eat its two brothers before I took this picture. Red bell pepper with some sauce. A doughnut I was given and some salami. Paired with some mango tea.

Im well aware that my eating has slowed down and so has my nutritional intake. But I have food plans for tomorrow. I just didn't have time to eat because I spent two hours filling out important medical documents while my nephew was tearing the house apart and everyone needed to be in the kitchen for something shaking the table I was writing on and that on top of my hand tremor made it nearly impossible to get anything done.

It's just my family stressing me out too much to function properly. And that's not even the craziest part. I'll share that in another post.

Some pictures I took of the sun hitting deferent things.

TW.

I had a cosmic brownie, a strawberry shortcake and barbecue onion rings. I got back from the store and I survived my mother. I'm fully aware that I'm not eating healthy and I'm trying to get back on track. I have plans for more healthy meals tomorrow.

It was a long day of her acting like it was her first day of modern society and kept saying embarrassing and out of pocket things. Plus she kept nearly running in to me and shoulder checking me all because she was mad at my father. I'm preparing to move out but for now I'm still here mostly out of obligation to my siblings.

Plus she called me fat and hinted at me eating too much and that's why this tiny bag of cereal wasn't going as far. I personally will not be touching it after that.

The urge to binge those delicious chicken tenders hit me like a train but I know I'll regret it and the. want to purge. I'm just going to lay down and hopefully fall asleep.

What I photograph on my walk. May 9th.

My first two walls after being sick for over a month. I'm not a hundred percent but I'm getting there.

what I've been eating the last couple days.

Tomato soup with egg noodle. Coconut water with pulp and sparkling water. What I didn't photograph was the two pieces of homemade cake. The three chocolate chip cookies. The random pieces of bread and the four marshmallows I eat straight out of the bag. And the concerning amount of pasta I've eaten all week. I need to go shopping so I've just been scrounging. I did eat a bit more sugar then I probably should have but I refuse to feel bad about it. I'm enjoying getting my appetite back after being sick.

Hello everyone. I wanted to show you what I've been eating for the past week or so.

Some toast I didn't finish, hibiscus tea, some pasta with tomato sauce with extra onion and garlic, stale bread but it still tastes fine, steamed eggs with spinach, and cherry blossoms tea.

I hope everyone is doing well. I just wanted to say I appreciate everyone who likes or interacts with my posts. It means a lot.

The duality of bread. I cooked them at the same time but one didn't rise.

Here's some lentil soup I made and a update. I don't have pneumonia thankfully. But I do have acute bronchitis and I'm on antibiotics and an inhaler. This soup is delicious also.

Here's some things I photograph today.

I'm proud of myself. I was quite productive today.

Homemade sauce and meatballs with store bought noodles. Lemon water and candied lemon peels.

April 16th. My deepest apologies. There has been a death and I have set up drafts to post for me.

I made different soups and a begal with cottage cheese and some cereal. Most of these pictures have to been taken one the 10th and 11th.

I would like to apologize for my long absence. It wasn't my intention to be away for such a time. April 12th.

I had some decaffeinated tea on the right and some homemade chia seeds pudding with half a banana.

Not the ideal meal but I was incredibly busy.

By the way if you enjoy drinking tea especially loose leaf tea I highly recommend you try this brand. It's my new personal favorite.

March 7th.

I'm alive and my whole house is sick again. But I made food.

March 4th.

I had rose tea, a spinach salad. Some pot roast with carrots and potatoes with a side of stuffing. And lastly butter noodles with soy sauce.

March 2th.

I was on the move the whole day and didn't have time. I had three gummies worms, a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. And Gatorade from a quick trip and peach water.

March 1st

raspberry pancakes, ham and steamed eggs. Plus a bag of sour candy.

I've been out of commission so to the stomach flu. But I'm back now. I apologize for my absence.

It's not much but this is what I've eaten since the 25th. I also had a bowl of soup that I forgot to photograph.

I'll be posting more often now that I'm feeling better.

I just want to thank everyone who interacts with my posts. I truly do appreciate everyone.

I had honeyed bread and two wild berry poptarts for breakfast.

Walked a mile to and from to my local store and bought a smoothie, energy and a bag of licorice.

I don't recommend the licorice I only eat a few. The energy drink was delicious. The smoothie was okay.

I made me and a friend dinner. Steamed egg with spinach and carrots on the side. Plus one piece of ham.

I finished the day with a bowl of cereal and yogurt.

First food of the day. It's 6:42 in the evening but it's all good.

Lettuce and spinach salad with ranch and cheese. A piece of fried chicken seasoned with paprika, salt and pepper. Paired with hibiscus tea. I really enjoy loose leaf tea but it's so expensive.

This is what I've eaten through the week or so. I kinda slowed down but I'm back now.

Rice and chicken with chilli orange sauce. Pancakes with milk. The summer sausage paired with a bear claw and maple doughnut. A can of pineapple. A box of raisins. And the last bit of sausage.

It's all a bit random but I went shopping so I'll have healthier food to share next time.

"I want to eat :(" "Then eat" NO YOU DONT UNDERSTAND THERES AN INVISIBLE WALL

How do I befriend myself?  I am [after all] the now who hurt me the most.