I Would Like To Apologize For My Long Absence. It Wasn't My Intention To Be Away For Such A Time. April

what I've been eating the last couple days.

Tomato soup with egg noodle. Coconut water with pulp and sparkling water. What I didn't photograph was the two pieces of homemade cake. The three chocolate chip cookies. The random pieces of bread and the four marshmallows I eat straight out of the bag. And the concerning amount of pasta I've eaten all week. I need to go shopping so I've just been scrounging. I did eat a bit more sugar then I probably should have but I refuse to feel bad about it. I'm enjoying getting my appetite back after being sick.

March 4th.

I had rose tea, a spinach salad. Some pot roast with carrots and potatoes with a side of stuffing. And lastly butter noodles with soy sauce.

It's okay to eat 'more than you need.' Maybe you are extra hungry! Maybe there is a fun event and you are sharing in social joy! Maybe you just wanted something because it made your day better. You are allowed to enjoy food and not think of it in terms of numbers.

Some of my absolute favorite photos.

reblog to heal the person you reblogged this from

I got a new ring about a month back or so and I wanted to know what everyone thought. It's the one on my index finger.

Ignore the nail polish, my girl friend wanted to match and her man didn't want to. I don't think he likes me very much but the feeling is mutual.

April 16th. My deepest apologies. There has been a death and I have set up drafts to post for me.

I made different soups and a begal with cottage cheese and some cereal. Most of these pictures have to been taken one the 10th and 11th.

March 3th

I had canned chili that smelled and tastes like dog food paired with some diet coke. Had a chocolate chip cookie for a snack and had sparkling water for breakfast.

I also had a splitting migraine the whole day.

This is kinda a ramble post but I need answers.

Okay maybe it's because I'm a guy and unsure on how to tell if a girl likes me or is just being nice. And I don't want to do or say anything that might make them uncomfortable. I'm coming to the lovely people on Tumblr for help.

So a female friend and me were sitting together at the park listening to Chase Atlantic just enjoying the sunshine and eating sour candy I bought for us. And I guess some of the sugar got under my thumb ring so I took it off to clean it. Without skipping a beat she looked at me with the biggest smile and said 'I hope someday I'll find some to love me the way you love your ring' I was confused at first until she took my hand and held it up to me. She somehow notice the dented in my finger where my ring sits all the time. Then she stared into my eyes for a solid thirty seconds before continuing on her candy.

What do I do? Was that causal and I'm just making things weird or did I mess something up?

This is a bit of a rambling post I apologize just scroll past it if you want.

I just spent the entire day in the a hospital. Getting poked and prodded by people because I haven't been able to breathe for two weeks. On and off wheezing almost fainting the whole nine yards.

And I had to go by myself with my narcissistic father who complained and snapped at me the whole time. I tried getting multiple of my siblings to go with me because I go to every appointment they go to. Everyone said no and my mother was watching my nephew and couldn't go.

Well turns out I could possibly have a pulmonary embolism in my lung. For those who don't know that a very dangerous blood clot that can kill me.

So I'm sitting in the ER tore between crying like a big baby and acceptance and my father was complaining about the bill of anything not covered by my insurance.

So we went from a urgent care to the ER. And some how my father managed to convince to ER staff that me not being able to breathe was allergies. Anyways I apologize to anyone who reads this I just really needed to get that out.