TW.

This happened awhile ago but I'm bored so I'll share it with you all.

Some months back while I was walking down the highway in the pouring rain just for something to do.

And an ambulance drove past me which isn't a strange occurrence because of the state I live in. There's a lot of violence and drugs use here.

And I stopped on the shoulder to let the ambulance pass without worrying about me jumping in front of it because that has actually happened. And I don't know what possessed me to do this but I waved at them. And I watched in horror as the driver's face went pale and his face just dropped while he was looking at me.

About twenty or thirty feet down the road towards the hospital they slowed down and turned off the emergency lights.

For those who don't know that means the patient has passed in the ambulance and they're too far from the hospital to continuing resuscitating you. It happens the most with D. N. R patients.

And this paramedic has had some kind of grudge against me since then because everything he passes me. I get the rudest looks for him.

Pardon the back ground. I had already walked a couple miles and I was passing through a trailer park.

Not the best outfit and I lost my belt at the time.

reblog to heal the person you reblogged this from

A relapse doesn’t erase the progress you made by staying clean.

If you’ve been clean for a day, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a week, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for a month, I’m proud of you.

If you’ve been clean for longer, I’m proud of you.

If you relapsed after being clean for a while, I’m proud of you for staying clean however long you did. A relapse isn’t the end of the world. I’m still proud of you for everything you did to try to stay clean.

If you have tried to stay clean and failed, I’m proud of you for trying. It’s hard, I know. Don’t give up. I’m proud of you.

No matter what, I’m proud of you. I’m proud of you for everything. I’m proud of you for being alive right now. Don’t say you don’t deserve this, because you do. You very much do.

Thank you for existing.

First food of the day. It's 6:42 in the evening but it's all good.

Lettuce and spinach salad with ranch and cheese. A piece of fried chicken seasoned with paprika, salt and pepper. Paired with hibiscus tea. I really enjoy loose leaf tea but it's so expensive.

The duality of bread. I cooked them at the same time but one didn't rise.

Hello everyone. I wanted to show you what I've been eating for the past week or so.

Some toast I didn't finish, hibiscus tea, some pasta with tomato sauce with extra onion and garlic, stale bread but it still tastes fine, steamed eggs with spinach, and cherry blossoms tea.

I hope everyone is doing well. I just wanted to say I appreciate everyone who likes or interacts with my posts. It means a lot.

I just wanted to show you what I made today. I know it's not aesthetic but I want to create a little reminder that we can't find joy in the small things in this up coming year of stress while also motivating myself to actually eat. I'm recovering from a eating disorder and I want to be able to look back at my progress and be proud of how far I've come.

It's salt and pepper chicken with black berry sauce and honey yeast rolls. Paired with orange tea.

I got a new ring about a month back or so and I wanted to know what everyone thought. It's the one on my index finger.

Ignore the nail polish, my girl friend wanted to match and her man didn't want to. I don't think he likes me very much but the feeling is mutual.

It's okay to eat 'more than you need.' Maybe you are extra hungry! Maybe there is a fun event and you are sharing in social joy! Maybe you just wanted something because it made your day better. You are allowed to enjoy food and not think of it in terms of numbers.