“Is There No Way Out Of The Mind?”

⚠️ TW : (kn1ves , bl00d, g^ns , we@p0ns) ⚠️ read at own risk !!

.͙✼̥୭⁺ '🧺🖇🕊 Mafia au prompts ~

“baby you’re bleeding , it’s a nice colour on you”

“Let me see those crystal tears”

“Bold of you to assume I loved you”

“She took all the guns and for what ?!!”

“Don’t you dare step near me.”

“Oh that’s easy , (name) pass me a grenade”

“MARIA NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT BOMBS TY AND STEP DOWN FROM THAT ROOF”

“Bet all your guns and I’m in”

“Well lookie here , we’ve got ourselves a rookie ?”

“Run while you can kid”

“I bet these nails can do more than just trace your jaw sweetie”

“Hold it like this , shoulders down , this way she won’t be able to aim for your back”

“IS THAT WHAT YOU CALL A SHOT BYE THIS IS FUNNIER THAN YOU GETTING YOUR HEAD STUCK IN THE TOILET”

“Omg you did not just swallow that”

“I had to clean my hands on the sophomore’s shirt , girl has Bloody Mary written all over herself now”

“IN MY DEFENCE SHE SLAPPED ME FIRST”

“Sometimes you don’t always get what you want”

“Gimme that fucking knife-“

“She took ALL OF MY AMO ?? Oh she is on”

“Her amo is as precious as her nuggets , when I tell you she goes crazy for them , I mean crazy”

“Bet this looks better on your throat than in my pocket”

“Well haven’t you got a bull’s eye ay ?”

“I will choke you with this if I have to , do NOT TEST ME.”

“Who said victory came with an easy sacrifice ?”

“Your our’s now”

“Wipe that smirk of your face or I’ll snap you in two”

“They blowed up our warehouse and you’re more concerned about your missing ice cream ?” “Why yes yes I am”

“Well now we have nothing to fight them with but forks and butter knives because SOMEONE DUMPED OUR WEAPONS IN THE RIVER”

“We’re so done” “what makes you say that ? With me in lead we’ll catch them in no time” “you know you saying that doesn’t make it any better”

“I hope you knew that wasn’t soap-“

“The supply ? Oh .. ABOUT THAT UH-“

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I Hope you realise that you never have to regret the act of falling in love, you felt what was to be felt at the moment, you let yourself fall in love with the very thought of a person’s breath on your skin, you fell in love with the act of their fingers running through your hair, you fell in love with the act of being in each others presence and doing absolutely nothing. You fell, in love. Please allow yourself to feel the emotions that encompass you, surely you’ve moved on, surely you don’t have that person around you anymore, but allow yourself to be close to others, allow yourself fall yet again, allow yourself to commit the act of giving your whole heart, body, mind, and soul to that one person sitting on the swing across yours, and let those emotions fall whilst. There’s no saying where one can’t learn to hold onto the lingering memory of what once was, it was a memory where you loved them, and it stays untouched basking itself in the warmth. It can be your own little album because you shouldn’t have to fight the smile that creeps up your face :) it was okau to fall, and it’s okau to fall again.

Maybe, just maybe we could try to build a wall that permits our growth and breathing than by disguising our safety under the impression of a wall that inconsistently foreshadows our own strings from being intertwined by another’s, you know it’s not wrong to love :) you never did anything wrong by loving

things you can do despite your sense of guilt

- go for a walk even if you think you don’t deserve it

- have a snack even if you think you don’t deserve it

- take a break from studying even if you think you don’t deserve it

- reach out to someone even if you think you don’t deserve it

- demand, have needs and wants even if you think you don’t deserve it

- make it through the day even if you think you don’t deserve it

- feel mentally exhausted albeit seeming physically fine

- feel the sense of abandonment despite the company of those around you

- go to bed early despite not having done much according to your mental routine

- let out a deep breath even if you think you weren’t holding one back

The other day I was staring at the moon and it really got me thinking , do I have a charming personality -?? For her to get flustered and hide behind those clouds , the pink hue around her gave me an answer , October clearly had its fair share of goofiness with me

~ ghosts of tulips past :: 💌

Always casually waiting sitting on those huge seats in the cinema hall swinging my feet back and forth feeling the butterflies in my stomach chipping away at the branches of my ribs to see the post credit scene where they pat you on the back and kith your eyelids and forehead and that sweet nose of yours because you did today, you did today :)

[transcript: 1. “any fear, any memory will do; and if you’ve got a heart at all, someday it will kill you.”

2. “survive what? you said. in the weak light you looked over your shoulder. you said, nothing ever survives.”

3. “because you want to die for love, you always have.”

4. “jesus: you think suffering is a one-way street?! it’s not! it’s the exact opposite of not!

judas: you got a lot of fuckin’ nerve—

jesus: —and you’ve got no nerve at all! where’s your heart in all this, judas? you think you were with me for any other reason than that?! it was your heart, judas. you were all heart. you were my heart! don’t you know that?!”

5. “he thought about wanting to feel like he had been made for something other than dying.”/end transcript]

rita dove, primer for a nuclear age/margaret atwood, roominghouse, winter/richard siken, planet of love/stephen adly guirgis, the last days of judas iscariot/maggie stiefvater- mister impossible

The world seems to be ignoring this, so allow me to remind you all:

PEOPLE WITH BPD ARE NOT INHERENTLY ABUSIVE