Gentle Growth Is Still Growth, Slow Growth Is Still Growth, Fast Growth Is Still Growth, Steady Growth

The other day I was staring at the moon and it really got me thinking , do I have a charming personality -?? For her to get flustered and hide behind those clouds , the pink hue around her gave me an answer , October clearly had its fair share of goofiness with me

~ ghosts of tulips past :: 💌

Some of you will romanticize doing face masks together or you’ll romanticize coffee in the morning after a night of love making but no one talks about how quickly that stops being important. No one romanticizes true care and compassion.

Does your partner give you the space to discuss your feelings without making you feel like your emotions are irrational?

Do they interrupt you in front of others? Do they talk over you?

Do they give you the space to work through things on your own if need be? Do they offer you solitude without guilting you for ‘abandoning’ them?

Does your partner share responsibilities with you? Do they notice the tasks that are too much and offer to take over?

Do they ask you what you need when you’re overwhelmed? Did they take the time to learn what overwhelms you?

Do they know where you keep your medicine? Did they check to see if you’re keeping up with your hygiene? Does your health matter to them?

Raise the bar.

You’re all so much more deserving.

.͙✼̥୭⁺ '🧺🖇🕊 Angst prompts ~

“whyre you here”

“You know .. we could’ve avoided this”

“Look me in the eye and tell me you still feel the same way, do it.”

“Why now ?”

“I’m not your test dummy”

“You emotionally drained me out”

“How was I supposed to know ? ”

“Does it hurt ? Tell me does it hurt like it did then ?”

“IM SORRY OK ? IM SORRY”

“Oh please you don’t have the slightest regret”

“Get back to me when this mask of yours falls off”

“It reminded me of them”

“Some people only remain in your life as a chapter”

“They were my favourite chapter”

“Was I the best you had ?”

“It pains doesn’t it”

“Your smile’s different”

“There’s a lot more to you than what meets the eye”

“Who thought someone as sweet as you could be so bitter”

“Step away from me”

“Don’t do it.”

“Please I’m trying”

“But it turned out that way did it not ?”

“You were sorry , ‘were’ ..”

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god calls me on the payphone, tells me there aren't enough magnolia trees in the garden. asks me a question. i spend my whole life answering it.

You’re not always going to be having an absolutely downright miserable day for you to feel worn out, your body can most definitely take the toll of an event even if your mind hasn’t reached the capacity or state to process it, there are so many instances where you yourself are not emotionally ready to face something but that doesn’t mean that your body will stop there and then. Maybe it’s something that happened over a week ago, or a month, and it happened to be that very thing you tucked under your pillow so it wouldn’t keep you up at night, so take my word when I say that it shouldn’t come off as a shock to you if you can’t set your mind on something or someone, have the energy to go on about your day, or be in your element when nothing went wrong. Take this exhaustion as a sign and evaluate over those times and everything you’d been through, face them and give yourself the time to sit through what happened, processing is key, tugging it away to suffer physiological distress is not.

getting anonymous hate (“just checking in” emails) from jealous haters (my professors) because of my hot takes (incredibly overdue assignments)

Frank O'Hara, from Selected Poems; "Mayakovksy"

[Text ID: I love you. I love you, / but I'm turning to my verses / and my heart is closing / like a fist.]

Empathy isn’t a requirement. You’re not required to empathise, neither is it your job to. “Oh you can’t put yourself in their shoes? That’s ALRIGHT.” It’s alright if you cant picture yourself there, don’t bonk your brain for it. Now now, Just because a person hasn’t empathised with you doesn’t necessarily mean they won’t sympathise either. You cannot expect people to have your life figured out when they’re managing to have a grip on their own. “How could they have not known?” Sometimes it’s not that easy, a person can be just as mentally absent as they’re physically present with you, consider the factors before jumping to conclusions that throws them under the bus.

Bedroom idea from the Better Homes & Gardens Decorating Book, 1975

For all that your heart has seeped in through , for all that you have continued to give, for all that your being has continued to hold, for all that your skin has embraced, for every promise that you’ve thread onto for yourself, to see you on the other side, you made it :) I see you now and you still remain, every bit of you still remains, you made it to 2023. Happy new year <3