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My love cannot be replaced you will search for me in everyone after me

literally me and my boyfriend

PINTEREST: deijahchristyne

me and mutuals <3

The 3 pillars of girlhood stealing, lying, and yearning

Yes, I’m a fucking dumb stupid girl

“Frozen Waves” - Ice forms smooth, undulating patterns.

where?

I feel like I’m not here. Although im strangely serene.

People talk to me and Im so calm and patient and conversational, like my usual mask has been boosted and it does not require the same effort it always does.

I’m floating. I don’t know what is going on around me.

I can’t centre my brain to understand emails. But I am serene.

Imagine they saw the pain inside me and asked me about it. What would I say? That’s why I can’t allow any pain to be seen.

I think that’s is why my brain has put me in this serene state.

But I am in pain. Like many books say, there is an empty whole in my chest.

I don’t remember feeling pain like this. I feel it in my soul.

Vuelvo a las estrellas. Vuelvo a usarlas para recordar las cosas bonitas de esta vida, y que las malas no nublen la belleza de estar aquí.

Siempre me curan. Una oscuridad tan plena y acogedora, tan fuerte y vacía. Las luces más delicadas que resplandecen en el vacío, haciéndote sentir especial de verlas.

Y si encima la noche tiene brisa… que más puedes querer?

La vida te ama

Sometimes reality is warped and not clear. Does this happen to everybody or only me?

In the spam of 10 minutes I can change my mind 20 times. Back and forth, blame myself, blame someone else, blame my mom, blame life, blame god…

But what actually happened? I genuinely don’t know

Darkness always consumed me. I loved it, and it loved me back.

We have been friends all our lives, and we dance and sleep together every night. It comforts me from the terrible brightness, and hugs me after my scariest nightmares.

I know we will continue to grow old together. And when the day comes I leave this place, I will fall back into it’s arms like the lost lovers we’ve always been.

My life had no meaning without it.

Will I survive you?

Some moments are so determinant in our lives. Like knowing if we got into university, or if you got the job across the country, or if your grandma woke up from surgery.

This is one of them.

Our present could disintegrate, or our futures could be built… what will it be?