Intro.

some notes from fall semester

250116

2/100 days of productivity

song of the day: me gustas tu- manu chao

very tiring day today, i regret not taking an afternoon nap. but quite productive! i came back from my 8:30 pm lab to find the power out which was quite fun. gone were my plans of crashing right on my bed and i proceeded to drag myself to the library. it is now 10:30 pm and apparently the power is back so i'll crawl up the hill back home once i finish up my chemistry notes!

research: halfway through editing my article. only one body paragraph left to rewrite.

academic: did calculus until my brain exploded. physics was very fun and the fire alarm fortunately did not go off this time. my ta for my 2 hour long calculus tutorial is not so endearingly clueless so needless to say i will not be attending calculus tutorials anymore.

self care: actually didn't do too much today and i am very very tired. but i am in surprisingly good spirits considering everything that has happened today! i really like this "library": it is actually the basement of our math building, nicknamed "the dungeon", but i love the atmosphere. photo attached below!

break today. a little shaken from an experience today out on the streets late at night. won’t go into much detail but I am safe now and will hopefully continue to be. had a fun lab workshop and hung out with a friend!

One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

“Until it’s done tell none”

Your life is what you make it.

250124

8/100 days of productivity

almost done my calculus problem set and applied for a scholarship. just have citations left for my article. have a biomedical engineering conference tomorrow that i am very excited for.

250203

18/100 days of productivity

song of the day: cry for me- the weeknd

spent 11 hours studying for chemistry today. finished all of my practice problems. going to office hours tomorrow and doing the practice midterms and I should be all set. also did two sets of calculus notes and some calculus problems. went to an amazing conference on sustainability and the keynote speech was very inspiring. I wish that I had more chances to interact with things like this as a stem major. ft. my campus squirrels

The moment of enchantment: a rainbow in the valley beneath us

birth.

just read a modern au jayvik fic where viktor had a tumblr account and it kind of changed my brain chemistry. i have decided to post here from now on, documenting my life and goals. and also in part to practice my writing. i figured that having this to document things is loads better than venting to chatgpt, even if only one person sees my posts. if i end up gaining a following, or if even one person is reading this, i appreciate you and thank you. may we all forge on through the journey called life and define and evolve to be the best version of ourselves together.

It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.