"My Work, Which I’ve Done For A Long Time, Was Not Pursued In Order To Gain The Praise I Now Enjoy,

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7/100 days of productivity

did my physics notes and some calculus practice. tiring day today.

current mood

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24/100 days of productivity

song of the day: good kid- kendrick lamar

had a very stressful lab today and got less work done then i would've liked.

academic: worked on my biology assignment and did some calculus review. worked on my lab report.

tomorrow: chemistry quiz, finish biology assignment, chemistry notes.

oil on canvas. started and finished in one day. a little rushed but it made my father (it was a gift for him) happy so it’s worth it. sorry about the glare: it is not dry enough for the matte finish.

this is me by the way

Finished the Viktor piece in time for his birthday!

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11/100 days of productivity

song of the day: lune noire-isolde lasoen

pretty okay day today. starting to lose my motivation a little bit but i have midterms coming up. i have a chemistry one next week and i am very behind on content which is... unfortunate.

academic: finished my chemistry lab and my lab report. finished my calculus problem set. halfway finished my physics problem set. finished my chemistry quiz with a friend. attended an engineering symposium and got free pizza.

research: did some research into egg albumen adhesives. apparently our wet lab is using it as a control so i'll have to add the protocol to our paper. it was very interesting though.

selfcare: got myself a nice turkey apple brie sandwich today. i had no idea the sandwiches at my school's sandwich and soup bar were that good. it was so yummy i will be buying it again. sadly they close at 2 but i want to try other sandwiches.

tomorrow: i have to submit my appliation for a summer research position since it's due in 3 days. my school is having a club fair so i will be getting free stuff.

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song of the day: futile devices- sufjan stevens

not the most productive day today.

academics: completed next week's notes and half of next week's readings. spent most of my time revising physics.

selfcare: took a nice hot shower. then the hot water cut out. it was not pleasant.

tomorrow's goal: do last week's practice problems and get started on this week's problem sets so i'm ready before class. also need to prepare for my lab on monday.

notes: i, in fact, did not figure out my program and am still debating transferring.

One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

my breath in clouds

the snow crunching beneath my feet

the sting of cold air on my ears

the moon, full amidst the clouds and fog

brick buildings and warm lighting

colourful stained glass and pure white snow

soft music, I see them sitting atop a snow pile

hushed voices, subtle glances

a moment of tranquility in bustling city life

quietly shared with you