This User Has Depressive Moods Related To Anxiety

I've spoken to my ex every night since his first day of work...We've spoken over the phone twice. Last night/this morning (from 23.30 to like, 3 ish) and two nights ago from like, 1 am to almost 5... His voice is so damn fucking familiar cuz we used to call at night and when we woke up and he would sing me to sleep and when I've been saying I’m tired...he just sings, really badly (cuz he rlly cant sing that well, but its still so...cute) and like it kinda just hurts but in my mind I'm so tired to even say anything and it just feels so nice and so...normal. My friend asked if I wanted him back and I didn’t know what to say cuz...yeah I do but at the same time I don’t.  Its because I'm so sick of him, but all I want is to be able to fall asleep on his chest, his hand playing with my hair, listening to his heartbeat, tapping my fingers on his chest to the beat of "Bam Bam" by Camila Cabello and Ed Sheeran while its light outside but he has his shutters closed...and its just so peaceful. Just him murmuring that he loves me...and I'm so tired to even take it in but I say it back because that’s how I feel, with my whole heart. I hate that I can remember every single day I spent with him. I miss holding his hand, I miss hugging him and breathing in his scent that I got so damn used to. I miss him, but not in any way you would expect. I miss when he used to come over and mess around with my skateboard in my hallway on the rug. I miss how he would always try to pick me up and that I could feel his arms shaking. I miss him kissing me, how full his lips feel on mine. I miss moments where I would quote something from a show or movie he really liked and how he would kiss me and tell me how much he loved me. I thought I was over him.  I thought I’d be able to talk to him easily without intrusive thoughts. I guess I was really wrong. I even miss our song...

Well, 700 years but same here

<Alt Text:> This Headmate Has Been Asleep For 3000 Years And Has No Fucking Idea What's Going On

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This user is a daydreamer

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right now i really want to cry. i want someone to hold me close to their chest, so tightly that i can only hear their voice, their heartbeat and their breathing (and my occasional crackling sob). i want to feel someone care for me. because lots of people won’t believe me but that feeling...when someone holds you so tightly, and makes you feel so safe to just break in front of them...that is what someone caring feels like. you can actually feel it. i haven’t felt it in...over a month. i know thats a short period of time but shit, people don’t hug me. people don’t hug me like how he used to. he used to let me cry. he used to just sit there in silence with me because thats what i needed. i didn’t want to interact with people but i didn’t want to be alone. i’m sick of being alone. but i can’t even cry. because i have no one to hold me tightly. no one to murmur that they love me. i have no one. i have nothing. i have myself, and i’m not strong enough.

@kokobot

this beautiful person sent me a private DM here in tumblr once i gave them my username and reached out and everything and i’m really glad that happened because they seem like a truly wonderful person

thank you kokobot and thank you to everyone who supports other people and also thank you to people who need support on kokobot because honestly it’s been made so much better by you guys so <33

i’m waiting for the night to end because maybe then, i will end too

1:19 - im tired of this

making my favourite female kpop stars (from groups and solo) gods Chung Ha - Goddess of Power and Fertility  Moonbyul - Goddess of Wealth, War and Prosperity Jennie - Goddess of Apathy and Wealth Lalisa - Goddess of Wisdom, Prophecy and Fire Jessi - Goddess of Victory and Revenge Irene - Goddess of Useful Arts and the Moon Yeji - Goddess of Travellers and Archery Mina - Goddess of Forbidden Love, Justice and Peace Momo - Goddess of Choices and Consolation  Ji-woo - Goddess of Youth and Silence BAE - Goddess of Strength and Fidelity

writing at 2am, listening to claire de lune, wishing my lover had fallen asleep beside me tonight.

IT WORKS AHHHHH

what if every Tumblr user suddenly looses their mouse?