I Wear Everything, What Option Do I Choose Online

Tell me that I haven’t fallen for the most romantic thing ever.

Persuasion (by Jane Austen) has an exhaustingly beautiful and sort of haunting loving feel that drifts through the air, and actually, makes me long for a romance to stir me out of my sorrows.

A few lines of the letter that really catch me are these,

“I am half agony, half hope.”

“I have loved none but you.”

“For you alone, I think and plan.”

“You sink your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of the voice when they would be lost on others.”

You cannot tell me that is not romantic. To see a kiss, to share a kiss , to hear others recollect their memories of youth and love...makes me wonder why I let myself down and let go of the one who captivates my heart every time I hear their name. Even a thought of every second we spent together, any moment that arrives to my mind...makes my heart beat faster and makes me feel in a daze again...but then I feel my heart sink, because they are no longer with me. They no longer have me in their mind.

Jane Austen’s words are too powerful for my weak frame of mind, I fear.

Perhaps I will move onto the Brontë sisters for this week.

everyday is the same, its on repeat, over and over. i want to escape. i want to break free. i want to run. run...run......

the Kim Line scolded me because i farted y'all

ok i'm bored let's play this:

yoongi licked my face because i sent him nudes........................... 😶

This user wishes they weren’t so sad all the time 

writing at 2am, listening to claire de lune, wishing my lover had fallen asleep beside me tonight.

this user has escalaphobia

jump in the water, wait for the storm, swim against the tide with me

making my favourite female kpop stars (from groups and solo) gods Chung Ha - Goddess of Power and Fertility  Moonbyul - Goddess of Wealth, War and Prosperity Jennie - Goddess of Apathy and Wealth Lalisa - Goddess of Wisdom, Prophecy and Fire Jessi - Goddess of Victory and Revenge Irene - Goddess of Useful Arts and the Moon Yeji - Goddess of Travellers and Archery Mina - Goddess of Forbidden Love, Justice and Peace Momo - Goddess of Choices and Consolation  Ji-woo - Goddess of Youth and Silence BAE - Goddess of Strength and Fidelity

I've spoken to my ex every night since his first day of work...We've spoken over the phone twice. Last night/this morning (from 23.30 to like, 3 ish) and two nights ago from like, 1 am to almost 5... His voice is so damn fucking familiar cuz we used to call at night and when we woke up and he would sing me to sleep and when I've been saying I’m tired...he just sings, really badly (cuz he rlly cant sing that well, but its still so...cute) and like it kinda just hurts but in my mind I'm so tired to even say anything and it just feels so nice and so...normal. My friend asked if I wanted him back and I didn’t know what to say cuz...yeah I do but at the same time I don’t.  Its because I'm so sick of him, but all I want is to be able to fall asleep on his chest, his hand playing with my hair, listening to his heartbeat, tapping my fingers on his chest to the beat of "Bam Bam" by Camila Cabello and Ed Sheeran while its light outside but he has his shutters closed...and its just so peaceful. Just him murmuring that he loves me...and I'm so tired to even take it in but I say it back because that’s how I feel, with my whole heart. I hate that I can remember every single day I spent with him. I miss holding his hand, I miss hugging him and breathing in his scent that I got so damn used to. I miss him, but not in any way you would expect. I miss when he used to come over and mess around with my skateboard in my hallway on the rug. I miss how he would always try to pick me up and that I could feel his arms shaking. I miss him kissing me, how full his lips feel on mine. I miss moments where I would quote something from a show or movie he really liked and how he would kiss me and tell me how much he loved me. I thought I was over him.  I thought I’d be able to talk to him easily without intrusive thoughts. I guess I was really wrong. I even miss our song...

this user suffers from alcoholism