This User Suffers From Alcoholism

"all i wanted to say was that i fucking love you, it should be obvious that its not important to say. its the only thing i'm ever going to say thats not important. me saying that i love you doesn't mean i'm unhappy, or that, idk, i miss you with my whole heart (which i do but meh), i'm very happy, i've been hanging out with friends, i've finally started a group sketchbook, i'm doing photography again and i'm taking it serious. i found hobbies to fill time that i've gained since i stopped hanging out with you. i'm really happy. but i still love you. and that isn't dumb, actually. its vulnerability, and i trust you, even if i shouldn't, because you've always been nice to me. you're chill. and i love you. so. yeah."

this user is addicted to caffeine

i feel like i'm the only person who gets so so lonely to the point their anti-social but like they so want to talk to someone or have someone come over so they can just sit with someone else in silence. like i just got so lonely in the space of five minutes of my mother being rude to me and now i'm sitting here and all i want is a hug and to be able to be silent with someone. i want to fall asleep but wake up and someone will be there and we can just be quiet but together. thats what i need right now...i wish someone could provide that...

right now i really want to cry. i want someone to hold me close to their chest, so tightly that i can only hear their voice, their heartbeat and their breathing (and my occasional crackling sob). i want to feel someone care for me. because lots of people won’t believe me but that feeling...when someone holds you so tightly, and makes you feel so safe to just break in front of them...that is what someone caring feels like. you can actually feel it. i haven’t felt it in...over a month. i know thats a short period of time but shit, people don’t hug me. people don’t hug me like how he used to. he used to let me cry. he used to just sit there in silence with me because thats what i needed. i didn’t want to interact with people but i didn’t want to be alone. i’m sick of being alone. but i can’t even cry. because i have no one to hold me tightly. no one to murmur that they love me. i have no one. i have nothing. i have myself, and i’m not strong enough.

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Heya, my name is Unity/Ares, just...well. you pressed the link so, you know what to do! I'm 15, biologically female, green eyes, 5'3, auburn

just for fun!

writing prompts - romance/angst romance dialogue - angst romance and romance "Was everything we were even real?" "How can you stand there saying you don't love me?" "The only reason I love myself is because I thought you loved me too." "I thought you said there was still hope for us?" "You know, I'm finding it really difficult to love you." "I thought we were forever." "You disgust me now. Everything I loved about you makes me shudder." "Stop saying you're okay, I know you're not. You forget...I know you. I've been through these things with you. I know you better than most. What's wrong..please don't hide it from me." "Stop yelling, please..." "I never thought I could be hurt this badly." "So, I heard you had a date yesterday..." "Can't you see I fucking love you." "You were my everything. No, scratch that actually. You are my everything." "If you feel like you're nothing without me, then you shouldn't have me." "You are an intelligent and beautiful woman with infinite potential, but your feelings for me are holding you down. Let go. I already have." "If anything happens it would be unfair to both of us. I still love you. I won't pretend I don't." "Don't say something like that, after all that." "Don't give me hope.." "I had hope. I did. I tried. In the end...I tried." "I hope for you..." "Ironic huh, hope for hope. You'll either be twice as happy or twice as sad with the outcome then." "Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me chance after chance. I didn't deserve them." "I hope that we can be together. I hope I can live with you. I hope I can marry you. I hope I can be a family with you. I hope I can...start...a family with you." "I hope for you. Always have, always will. I love you." "I know that you don't feel the same as me, not even in the slight." "I feel special when I'm with you. If that isn't love I don't know what is." "There is a chance for us...not now but later. There is a chance. Not like before though. We'll actually be a team, okay?"

you were, foolishly, fatally, more special to me than i ever was to you.

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this user experiences depersonalization 

want to hear something that scared the shit out of me? i researched the invention of the internet and the whole coding behind it...only just realised though that the internet is only ten years older than me. i. feel. so. fucking. old.