I Want 2 Bite Somebody

i want it, but its simply never going to happen

this yearning makes my chest genuinely ache

fuck

GRAAAAAH I WANNA LAY ON A MANS BACK AND HOLD HIM CLOSE TO MEEEEEE AND NEVER LET HIM GOOOOOO GRAAAAAH (im a loser)

pathetic loser yearning again

what else is new

yknow lowkey

learning to be unfiltered and unabashedly yourself is great

like the pathetic loser is radiating off of me

itd kill you if it were a gas

and i dont mind that

well kind of

i just like being myself

this has nothing to do with yearning im just writing shit

[deep inhale]

i need to heal before i can love anybody again

[deep exhale]

(not gonna stop me from yearning though ☠️)

thank gawd yearning blogs exist at all and im not the only one or else id look like i have schizophrenia

starting to think i shouldn't be so closed off and reserved if i want a relationship

its just scary

ive dated plenty of folks and all of them have hurt me

how do i avoid such a thing again

how do i avoid being abused dude

if i could just foresee the future on whether or not somebodys gonna hurt me my life would be a lot easier lord have mercy

i gotta rip my heart outta my chest

yknow i hate pda because not only is it just simply kinda awkward and uncomfortable for those around to witness it but i also just kinda hate seeing people put things on public display that i dont have