04/03/2025

I woke up around 11am today and felt relieved knowing my doctor's appointment was finally scheduled for tomorrow. I haven't listened to Eric Nam in a long time, and this song spoke to my soul 🩵

What if I have everything right now And I'm missing what it's all about? What if being happy isn't what I thought? Oh What if more is never enough? - lyrics from House on a Hill by Eric Nam

04/02/2025

Today is one of those days when I woke up feeling weird, sat with that discomfort, and things turned out quite ok. Not feeling my best, but got some good news, and the day got better =)

Hope you are somewhere in the world having a great day 🩵

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Research meeting ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner ✅ Group project 2 paper ✅ Check and reply to school emails ✅ Partial clinic notes (I'll finish the rest tmr 😴)

[Ended at 12:35am] Wrapping up earlier today and I know I deserve it. Been working hard all week and I can finally chill a little (before I have full weekend of training lol) Did my best today and I think maybe doing the bare minimum wouldn't hurt me once in a while. Good night 🩵

Day 1 ~ in recovery ~

A friend came over today to talk about my feelings and maybe get some work done for myself.

It's been 2 days since I last turned on my laptop and looked at my semester to-do list. I still haven't done it yet, and I feel intimidated by the potential workload I have waiting for me once this break ends and everything should go back to "normal." Is there even going to be a "normal"? I don't know. I feel very conflicted right now, but maybe this shows that I need a reality check. To ground me, not terrify me.

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

A daily reminder 🩵

04/16/2025

Another day, another log ✨ It actually feels nice to have this check-in every day to see how I'm doing mentally and academically. Still not sleeping a lot this week because I call this month the "finals month" of PhD... Have a lot to finish, still have new tasks that get added each week, and I'm not even sure how many full days I have to take a break from it all after this month and in summer =/ Not the best situation, but at least I still get to do some things I like in the meantime 🩵

Current mindset:

Completed

✅ School ✅ Case presentation (woohoo!) ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Get an oil change for my car! ✅ Get gas for weekend traveling ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Client plan ✅ Phone call with a friend ✅ Watch Everyone Loves Me ✅ Dinner ✅ Clinic notes x2

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report - results 6 part 2 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 7 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 8 or Thesis - bullet points ⏹️ Shower?

[End of study: 12:18am] I got frustrated with the cdrama so I ended up skipping through some episodes and stopped doing work for a bit... Ngl I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna speed through one more episode and call it a night. Good night, lovely humans 🥱

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

Does anyone else use Notion to take notes and stay organized?

I thought I'd list a few tips of making Notion more fun to use as you study/journal! And perhaps some of it is already SUPER obvious so I'm sorry if this list ends up being useless🥹💗.

I'll be using a mock-garden journal template to point out the tips!

1. Add emojis to your database titles—or to everything!

Add emojis to everything! It can honestly make it more fun to look at, even the calendar above looks cuter (double click to zoom in)!

But if that is a little overwhelming, but you still want to use emojis in a “quaint” way, you can make your database title a series of emojis. Like below!

I clicked the three dots, then clicked “edit database title.” I chose three tulips just to keep it on my garden-theme. So cute! 🌷🌷🌷

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2. Utilize the calculate button—in case you didn't know how to!

Maybe you already new this but I struggled to figure this out at some point lol! At the very bottom of a table right after the "+ New page" row, if you hover you'll see the "calculate" row.

When you want to add/average/whatever just click the "More options"! Yay, math!

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3. Solid colors as covers (from Unsplash) are very relaxing!

This one is super simple. I find that sometimes a solid cover for gallery pages is really nice to look at.

So I’m prone to typing specific shades I’m looking for into the Unsplash menu:

What I do is, I click a page, go to 'change cover' and choose Unspalsh. Then type in something like “pastel green” or “baby pink”. If the options aren’t enough, you can go directly to unsplash.com and find a free one! Example below of lovely solid colors!

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4. Easily change card sizes to adjust your galleries aesthetic

You can easily change card size to a just the aesthetic of your galleries ! Go to the little three dots at the top of your gallery (shown above), click layout, then card size! Now you can choose between S, M, L!

Bonus tip: if you go to ‘card preview,’' still under layout, you can choose what will be displayed on the front of your cards.

In the above example, I chose ‘page content’ 'cuz all the bullet points and todo lists looked so neat! Hehe! But you can choose 'page cover' if you have a fun image/color.

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Ands that’s all my loves! Let me know what you think in the comments! <3

If you like the look of these template snapshots and you coincidentally need to organize your garden project or any other project that fits the vibe (hehe), you can get it for free! I'll pop the link to it in the comments!

I hope this is helpful-ish!

HUGS!

Anastasia

04/04/2025

Had a full-day of workshop and I still have a few more to go... The day hasn't been that bad. Not until I realized how much I got charged for a recent imaging I had to do for my accident 🙃 They say US health insurance sucks, and I cannot agree more. I'm trying to stay positive and keep faith in the Universe, but it's hard when things like this happen. I don't know what more I can do. I don't know how I'm supposed to let go and surrender.

Completed

✅ Workshop ✅ Hangout with my friend ✅ Dinner ✅ Thesis work (30 minutes) ✅ Phone call with partner

To-Do

⏹️ Shower before bed

03/27/2025

22:22 It's time to start! Have to keep reminding myself that it is never too late to start studying and writing my papers. Everything will work out, and it is going to be OK. I just need to believe in the Universe. Surrender the control I feel like I need to assert in my life right now and do what I can, one day at a time.

What I look forward to for my birthday 😮‍💨:

Completed

✅ See clients

✅ Classes

✅ Part-time job

✅ Meeting with advisor

✅ Revise my thesis timeline with my friend's help

✅ Watch 1 anime episode (current: A Sign of Affection)

✅ Dinner

✅ Sleep by 1am

To-Dos

⏹️ Group project paper

⏹️ Skim project book chapter

⏹️ Skim project articles

⏹️ Shower

04/01/2025

Today, I witnessed my growth. The same things no longer trigger the same reaction as I have learned to take a deep breath and trust in the process. I feel more in tune with myself, even though I did not get enough sleep the night before and the school day was long. Today feels like something finally shifted to the right direction, and I can hear my inner guidance clearly again. Today has been great so far =)

I think this is mostly thanks to my oracle card telling me to take "a day of silence." I haven't been alone with myself without music for a long time. I used to have evenings after work when I would unwind with chores and give myself time to process and express my inner thoughts. But grad school and living situations made it difficult. I didn't know how out of tune I have been with myself until I finally turned my thoughts and attention inwards today. It has been a wonderful experience so far. Awkward but meaningful.

Completed

✅ Group project 1 presentation 🎉

✅ School

✅ Part-time job

✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama!

✅ Break time + nap

✅ Call my parents

✅ Dinner

✅ Watch Earl and Fairy

✅ Read and reply to school emails

✅ Group project 2 paper (1.5 hours)

To-Dos

Finished but I'm not too satisfied because I didn't get to finish more of the project paper than I had wanted. Guess it'll just need to happen tomorrow.

Trying to take it easy and not be so hard on myself today 🩵