borderlinedeadgirl
seasonally depressedidk what i'm doing here✧https://deritera.carrd.co✧
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me trying to scroll past all the porn bots and ed content on my dash
The Enola Holmes movies had six wonderful books with unique and interesting plot lines to choose from and they chose to do a historical au instead that involves erasing actual social activists in favor of propping up Enola because she is so unique and special when in fact her greatest strength was that she is like the other girls of Victorian London and used her femininity and the feminine graces women were expected to learn to her advantage.
movie enola: I can take the heat best believe that’s the moment I shine. Cause every romance shakes and it bends don’t give a damn…when the night’s here I don’t do tears baby no chance. I could dance I could dance I could dance
book enola: think I forgot…how to be happy (something I’m not, but something I can be. Something to wait for…what was I made for?)
Lachrymose
lach·ry·mose
/ˈlakrəˌmōs/
adjective
tearful or given to weeping."she was pink-eyed and lachrymose
girlhood is calling your friends babe, bby girl, bby, future wife, my gf etc despite having 0 romantic interest in each other
It's hard being sensitive in this world
hi
just opened tumblr for the first time in months kind of want 2 die lolz ???
why can’t i be PERFECT
“have you ever just cried because you’re you”
Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.
- The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath
Bad news girlies I think the voices in my head are coming back
Oh yeah I recently had a moment of realization, which is that Lady Catherine's main underlying motive for pushing the Darcy/Anne marriage isn't actually her ideas about keeping property in the family etc, or her agreement with her late sister at all.
The number one reason she's so wedded to it is the same basic reason Mrs. Bennet is so eager to have Mr. Collins as a son-in-law.
Because while Rosings isn't entailed, which has allowed her to lady it over the demesne all this time on the strength of her daughter's status as heiress, property law is such that as soon as there's a man in the family--as soon as Anne weds--it will all belong to him.
And while she won't be forced to find other lodging or anything unless a truly dreadful groom winkles his way in, she'll no longer be the mistress of the place as she has been all this time, not even as much the mistress as she was before she was widowed, because that will be Anne's place now. She will be only the mother of the wife of the master of Rosings.
And there is not likely to be any great supply of fellows of sufficient distinction and lineage to meet her high standards, who will want Anne (whose main appeal is her property), who will also allow their mother-in-law to rule the roost.
Darcy is a known quantity, who doesn't especially want Rosings and can be relied upon to prioritize Pemberley. And he is very respectful of his honorable aunt. Lady Catherine makes it clear she believes her sway over him is considerably higher than it actually is, because he values his family so highly and hates a fuss, so she has always always gotten her way with him before.
If she could get Anne married to Darcy, then she could fulfill her maternal obligation to Anne, and her lineal obligations to the de Bourghs and the Fitzwilliams. Without having to give hardly anything up herself.
And it's really cool how it's set up like this! Because the fact that the system is rigged so a woman fulfilling her duties to family and society inherently obliterates any power base of her own is totally fucked up, and wanting to resist that is understandable and sympathetic.
But as is so often the case, the easiest way to resist or evade such compulsions and injustices is by finding a way to exploit other people, and gain your own security and independence by taking theirs away.
And so Lady Catherine, like Mrs. Bennet, is ultimately a tacky and appallingly selfish human being.
