Tears racing down my cheeks
I'm trying to find the words but I can't speak
My hands tightly clutching your shirt
Your eyes full of confidence and mirth
Here's another girl running after you
Foolish enough to believe that your promises were true
You smirked and pried me away
Saying, I'm too boring to make you stay
With that, you turned your back
An offhand comment wishing me luck
My knees buckled as I accept defeat
This is karma, so swift and sweet.
The clouds roll in
Lightning flashes
The storm falls
I saw you
So beautiful, so wild
A force to be reckoned with
Leaving me again
In awe and in ruins.
One eye blind, one bright and clear
Both swimming with doubts, both filled with fear
One hand with gun, one gripping yours
Both bloody and bruised, both aching with force
Your lips on my ears, whispering the same words again and again
Telling me you're sorry, to pick up the pen
But the one's not holding mine, clutches a sword
And blood flows through my mouth instead of words.
Often I wonder if I'll ever hear your voice again
'Cause I can no longer remember its sound, its tone
I can only feel the warmth it brings when it rains
The way it made my heart skips, the way it chilled my bones
I wonder if you still laugh the same
If my soul, your singing can still tame
'Cause all I have now is a dusty memory
One that's leaving me, leaving me slowly
So here I am, still hoping against it all
That you'll one day give me call
That once again, I'll feel that honey dripping in my ears
Just so I can be reminded, there's someone real behind these tears.
You're still stuck in the crevices of my mind
Still haunting all the places I can find
I've given you the key, offered my chains
Hoping for a shelter, yet you turned out to be rain
You promised freedom but you are chaos
You made certain I'll never recover from your loss
Yet still here I am, waiting for your forgiveness
Still believing you're my one shot at happiness
Will I ever be free from the angel in my memory?
Will a time come when I'll finally see?
That the pedestal I put you on has already been toppled
And the sand castle we've built have long since crumbled.
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I wonder if I flit through your mind
If there are times you still try to find
Me, in those songs, those places
If in your life, I left some spaces
For you part me with a void, an aching in my soul
The face I look for in the crowd, the name I try to howl
Or maybe you don't even remember
The girl you've given a hasty farewell that chilly December.
I smile as I lift my phone up high
It was one of those nights that don't make me wish to die
There was singing and teary eyes
As the laughter echoes, and we're free of lies
And for the first time since I can remember
I slept with thoughts of getting better
For them with my side
I can do anything, I can try.
I hear the rain softly tapping on the window
As I slumber and continue to burrow
In my blankets, blocking the noise with my pillow
I can still hear your twinkling laugh, see you glow
And I can't open my eyes yet and go
For in these fragments of dreams, I can make you stay
Make myself believe that you never say
Goodbye, and forget that fateful day
Forget your broken promise, that you ever went away.
She left me in November,
And I cried for the whole December
I begged for her in January,
But by February, I lost her completely