Did You Know That Your Words Are An Elixir? If Not Before, Please Know Now.

Don't ask me why I put love in the same category as pain

Or why I avoid the sunshine and keep expecting the rain

If you've already forgotten, it's you who have broken promises

You, who proved how foolish I am to let down my defenses

Love left me open, vulnerable, hoping you won't hurt me

I offered you my soul, hoping you'd set me free

You took my broken pieces, forgetting about my past

Left me hanging, thinking that this would last

You snip away the thread when it was all I was holding on to

And bid me goodbye in the cruelest way I knew

You told me you want me and left

It seemed you can't handle to see how I see myself

It turns out that tearing my walls down and letting you in

Was only a silly game to prove that you will win

So I apologize for being naive and being in love

I should haven't given away the little that I have.

-D.G. Gir

My Hurricane

The clouds roll in

Lightning flashes

The storm falls

I saw you

So beautiful, so wild

A force to be reckoned with

Leaving me again

In awe and in ruins.

I can freely admit that I didn't deserve them. Not then. Not with all the pain I've caused them.

I just checked this out, and wow, thank you for introducing me to such a beautiful song. It does remind me of our dynamic. She was love of course, and I was hate.

I knew I loved you then, but I didn't tell

You've only fallen and I wasn't well

Cold, cold days with arms wrapped mine

Flowers were wilting, and you're looking for a sign

I want to be better, you want me to be yours

I keep screaming, screaming 'till my voice is hoarse

But you didn't know, didn't know 'cause you were deaf and blinded

I was paralyzed, trying to be found, you're lost, we're both stranded

I was rage, you were kindness, we made a home out of lies

Second chances, third ones, a promise that flies

A pair of wings growing while one withers away

I will never deserve you, I didn't ask for you to stay.

Lies

I was watching the moon up in the sky

As I sat up and sigh

I told the stars I'm letting you go

That it hurts, but I have to grow

I hope the whispered message reaches you

I forgive you and I'll learn to forgive myself too

Though I know I'll miss you forever

I accepted that things end, connections sever

And I wish, I wish someday when we meet

I can smile and say I'm happy without lying through my teeth.

I've learned to love darkness as if it is light

Learned not to chase what eluded my sight

So before you try and make me feel okay

Be reminded that I prefer the stillness of night than the buzzing of day

I've learned to enjoy the battles, the wounds, the scars

The monster, the demons, the way they are

We clash, we fight for this body, this mind

But their company, I can never leave behind.

I knew I loved you then, but I didn't tell

You've only fallen and I wasn't well

Cold, cold days with arms wrapped mine

Flowers were wilting, and you're looking for a sign

I want to be better, you want me to be yours

I keep screaming, screaming 'till my voice is hoarse

But you didn't know, didn't know 'cause you were deaf and blinded

I was paralyzed, trying to be found, you're lost, we're both stranded

I was rage, you were kindness, we made a home out of lies

Second chances, third ones, a promise that flies

A pair of wings growing while one withers away

I will never deserve you, I didn't ask for you to stay.

Mute

My pen glides through the paper as I bleed you out

The ink tells what I can't speak through my mouth

It seems I lost my voice since you left

Not does it matter, with me, you're always deaf

I beg for you to stay, I plead for just another minute

But you're hellbent on tearing my heart, blowing it to bits

Yet you say there's nobody crueler than I

When you didn't even think twice when you said goodbye.