Sorry

Disillusioned

Looking back, I thought you might have seen the good in me

And you tried to bring it out so I could also see

But that was only a flicker, something that flared your hopes up

And I knew that, so I asked you to stop

I'm broken that time and I couldn't trust anybody

Yet you insisted that it'll not be bad as I thought it would be

And for a bit of time, it seems okay

Until I can no more keep my demons in bay

I turned out to be a monster and you saw it

I punished you for the past I was burden with

I got you confused on with the truths and the lies

Having enough, you flee and bid me goodbye

And still, I wish I hadn't let you see,

That there's still good left in me

Maybe then, you wouldn't keep your hopes up

Saving us the time and pain, if you have stopped.

Naive

I remember lying in the snow

With the winter lights giving you an ethereal glow

Our hands intertwined, my heart beating fast

The night sky shined only for us

Oh, how I wish we've stayed there

When there are no worlds yet for us to bear

You were mine and I was yours

Now, we're cold shoulders and slamming doors.

I know that I'm healing when I realized that I don't want to die anymore. I realized that there are still things I wanna do, feelings I want to experience, adventures I want to go to, though I still have no motivation for it. But I'll get there. I believe it.

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

 But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

 I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza

Guest

I've swallowed my pride and spat my feelings out

Told you things no one cares to know about

You knocked down my walls and I stripped my armor

Opened the windows, welcomed you to my doors

We were happy, explored the rooms together

Built new ones, through the gardens we wander

Yet as I offer you a permanent place, you refuse

You're my story but I'm not your muse

Told me you were only having fun and passing through

A temporary shelter, until you find someplace better suited for you.

Sisters

I smile as I lift my phone up high

It was one of those nights that don't make me wish to die

There was singing and teary eyes

As the laughter echoes, and we're free of lies

And for the first time since I can remember

I slept with thoughts of getting better

For them with my side

I can do anything, I can try.

Can't you love me again?

You loved me.

I didn't.

I love you.

You don't.

We keep on missing each other. Can we meet somewhere in the middle someday?

I float, empty, a husk

In solitude, I bask

Don't let me, don't let me drown

Fill this void and anchor me down.

Farewell

Untie your hands, love, use your feet

Let go of my waist, dance to your own beat

It will be clear, if only you'd wipe away your tears

For your happiness, I'd go and face my fears

The wind in my sails, we're at your stop

Promise me I'll at least be in your map.