Mentally A Living Corpse

When you had started to kinda forgot about him but then see him again after a long time:

Happy Birthday!!!! 🎊🎉🎂🥰

Thank youuuu 🥰🥹💕💕!!!

I was set on trying to get into university for one specific degree and obvs have back up options aswell. But that one degree was my certain number 1 option. I seemed to have atleast something certain. And today I just realized it's not for me and I'm very unsure if I'll be able to do it. But it's not like I have anything else, I can't even think of a second option for an option I'm already so doubtful of.

NOOOO!!! A GIRL IVE BECOME GOOD FRIENDS WITH OVER THE MONTHS JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS AN ED. NOW MY BRAIN WILL AUTOMATICALLY START SEEING HER AS COMPETITION, START HYPERANALYZING EVERYTHING I AND SHE DO AND SAY AND ITLL START TO SPITE HER FOR BEING SKINNIER THAN ME.

She didn't give me even a chance to ask sumn. Said right away it isn't gonna change. 5 euros an hour it is 😭😭

Tomorrow I'll have to go to the staff manager at my summer job and look over my contract. I should ask for more pay than last summer but idk how ughhh.

And then day after that I'll actually have ti go to work. In theory it's not that bad, but just the idea of it fills me with unlimited tread.

Not denying it anymore. I am manipulative! I am problematic! Love me!!

Tomorrow I'll have to go to the staff manager at my summer job and look over my contract. I should ask for more pay than last summer but idk how ughhh.

And then day after that I'll actually have ti go to work. In theory it's not that bad, but just the idea of it fills me with unlimited tread.

i want someone to be violently obsessed with me. i want my existence to mean the world to someone

My brains is so funny cause it sees me in worlds not real, but struggles to acknowledge me in this one.

Saw a girl with the tiniest waist and a butch gf at work today. Idk if I even like girls like that, but have never wanted to be someone so bad in a while.