Looking Through Your Docsuma Tag.....love Them. Wish They Had One More Combined Braincell So They Could

looking through your docsuma tag.....love them. wish they had one more combined braincell so they could realize their feelings

HERE'S THE THING THOUGH OKAY the problem is actually that they're both too smart about their feelings. you've got me down a horrible rabbit hole okay let me do my best to explain without being a freak(reading this back over, i failed <3).

Xisuma takes longer to realize, first of all. He's got so much to deal with coming out of s8 and through the beginning of s9 that quite frankly he's really just grateful to have another friend he can count on and trust, and he's so consumed by getting the androids back in working order on top of his actual season 9 plans (on top of Cleo shoving self care down his throat and demanding that he make a better habit of taking breaks and taking care of himself, which takes a LONG time to adjust to, if it can be argued that he ever does) that he doesn't really realize he's developed feelings for Doc until his heart beats him over the head with it randomly one day. Probably sometime in S10. Even then, because of said busy-ness, I think Xisuma has a very hard time getting over the meta-ness of a creator developing feelings for his creation and the selfishness of that reality amidst all of his other responsibilities, and he is likely too scared/overwhelmed to entertain the thought of the feelings themselves, much less the likelihood of reciprocation or the fantasy of a relationship.

Doc, on the other hand, realizes he is developing feelings for Xisuma kind of steadily throughout the course of s9, since that's when they start spending so much more time together in the lab working on androids and improving android tech. As a general statement, Doc is very aware of himself, all of the time. His awareness of the self is very important to his sense of normalcy and control, so any time he experiences a new emotion, he notes it, logs it.

So, while he's very aware of the feelings he's developing as they happen, he doesn't quite put a name to it/realize what it actually is until he talks to Tango and Etho, funnily enough--It's definitely one of those moments where Tango or Etho or whomever are explaining their struggles with the physical manifestations of their... idk, lovesickness-- ie, thirium pump rate irregularities, temperature fluctuations, influxes of feelings they've described as a combination of longing, affection, want, happiness, yearning... and Doc, as the unbiased third party to put 2 and 2 together, explains to them that those are obvious signs of romantic attraction, only very belatedly realizing several hours later that those are the exact symptoms he hasn't quite been able to put a name to. Naturally he's exceptional about being quiet about this realization until he slips up during a maintenance check-in with Tango sometime after, who is not doing well in s9, and Tango (mid romance-ranting) catches the passing of a wistful expression on Doc's face and calls him out for "totally thinking about someone right now" (Teasing aside, tango promises to keep Doc's secret).

So, despite knowing well his feelings before X ever develops his own, Doc is actually very, very careful about them-- He knows more than anyone else how busy Xisuma is. He knows how stressed X is. He also knows Xisuma seems to be more knowledgeable when it comes to emotions and feelings, and despite the clear signs that Xisuma shows interest(?) in him as well, Doc can only assume there is a good reason nothing romantic has happened between them-- he trusts Xisuma more than anything, and he--firmly-- will not breach this trust by acting on something Xisuma does not seem to be ready for (or does not seem to want yet(yet?)). Therefore, Doc is patient, and even though as Season 10 develops and Doc becomes aware of the likelihood that Xisuma could return the feelings, he trusts Xisuma's emotional intuition more than anything. He, painfully, recognizes Xisuma's discomfort (or hesitation), concludes that there must be a missing variable in this equation he cannot grasp, and decides to let Xisuma lead because of it. He will not push farther than he feels Xisuma has.

It's definitely one of those "fell first" "fell harder" type situations I think. I'm normal about them. can you tell

Etho and Eefo the chaotic duo of clones

they both be chilling

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burdigel

1 month ago

live ORV posting:

Spoiler for ch 176 under the cut

HE KILLED HIS FUCKING FATHER???????

WHAT THE FUCK

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yes thats grreat trust

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burdigel

4 months ago

puntable seavbo

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4 months ago

77. Ballad Of The Walking Machines — CG5, JT Music

77. Ballad of the Walking Machines — CG5, JT Music

All the sins remain with the pain inside They reskinned my face, but the paint won't dry If you're alive right now, survive right now That's all you can do

Ohhh I'm so glad I finally get to draw to Ballad of the Walking Machines!! This one has been rattling around in my head since last year's wrapped drawings, but I was never able to put any of my thoughts onto paper!

On Bdubs' playlist, this song has always stuck to me as a representation of the other side of all of the horrors Etho's undergone over the course of Season 8, set during Destruction as Bdubs waits outside of the lab for what's supposed to be a relative simple diagnostic appointment, so he was told. As Bdubs, completely unaware than anything was even wrong with Etho until the start of the season, waits with baited breath to hear if his friend is okay, he's remind of their rough beginnings and how far he's come, both as a person and as Etho's friend. The tension that had come from a place of fear now comes from a desperate hope that Etho will be okay, and Ballad of the Walking Machines really well represents the juxtaposition between Bdubs' original fears of androids and his fear and hope in the present day that his dear friend will be okay.

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burdigel

4 months ago

no posting on tumblr today, i fear im busy watching people get eaten by Minecraft Youtuber BDoubleO on the hellsite that is previously twitter.com now X the everything app

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dang I still dont get it

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burdigel

3 months ago

Hedgehog’s Dilemma

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burdigel

3 months ago

If Epic the Musical was an anime

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burdigel

6 months ago

NOOooo I forgor but happy belated birthday :d

THANK YOOOOOOUUUUU anyways stand still pls

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BOOPS INCOMING AND RECEIVED

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3 months ago

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4 months ago

Headcannons and Theories Pt. 31

So the finale of Wild Life finished around a week ago and essentially Joel pummeled through the final five remaining contestants and ultimately taking the crown as the victor for the sixth (seventh) season of the Life Series and with the final wild card being a culmination of all the previous wildcards except the randomized hunger, it's a safe assumption that the Watchers considered this season a delicious successor to Secret Life.

With 18 members participating that garnered over 180 deaths (186), those dieties who watch over each and every season of the Life Series called the Watchers feast upon the chaos and grief emanating from the pain originating from the players and the multitude escapades caused by the series of wildcards and the improptu angst and interactions between alliances and allies. Although the Watcher's prescence isn't as prominent as Secret Life, (cough cough Taskmaster) there's still details and other aspects of the Watchers incorporated into Wild Life.

Some of these aspects could include the wildcards. As Grian the creator or constructor of the Life Series in general, as control and power over the orchestrated aspects of the Life Series. Like the wildcards, tasks and twists similar to the power of the Watchers. As watchers, the Watchers are able to probe and instigate but not directly influence the players like Scar and his tasks in Secret Life.

Take the immortal snails. Beings of incapable power able to break the player constraints and move in unncanny ways all in the conquest to murder the linked player taken in the form of a snail. An animal nortorious for its slowness and naivete commonly portrayed by popular media has the highest kill count throughout the whole season. Inspired by the theory from the Rooster Teeth Podcast in 2014 that was later popularised by a Reddit post in 2016, the whole premise is that you gain immortality and one million dollars in exchange for an immortal snail that indefinately hunts after you as it itself is also immortal. Tying in with greed and the gain of money all in trade for the eternal worry of death that lurks all around you. Threatening your legacy built from one step of carelessness.

Yet other aspects of the Watchers continue to persist into the subsequent sessions of Wild Life. Like the Trivia Bot. A gameshow-like bot that is most likely inspired by Mettaton from Undertale, suits with the Watchers' polar behaviour of sparking fun, distrust and a precursor to the chaos to the finale. Yet all this fun cluminates to the finale where the chaos continues to rise to the pinnicle of the season where all but one wild card are mushed together for one minute and 45 sec where it stops. And a message of "The ending is yours... Make it WILD" would be the second season in a row of the Watchers or some other external force signifying the beginning of the end.

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so ye here my summary of the watchers influence over wild life

(write side tangent about spider grian later )

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