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“Shatter Me”

Kai Chisaki x Oc

Chapter Two: “Escape attempt and Injured Wife”

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She made it Outside in Record Time To See Kai Trying to Keep his Cool Infront Of Two Random Hero’s.

One Of them was a Small Female, Obviously a Pro, the other Was a Younger Male, Probably one of her Interns.

“Itsuki Hinata? How Long has it Been?” She Taunted, tilting her Head Seeing the Young Male Knelt Down Next to Eri.

But the thing that Boiled Her Blood was the Fact that Itsuki Was Carrying Aiya in her arms, Turning her Little Body Away From her Mother.

Itsuki Glared at her, “Too Long Since you went Missing and Betrayed the Hero Society!” She accused.

Haruka Rolled Her Silver Eyes, “Oh Please, This Damned Hero Society Ruined me.” She Said, Holding her Arms towards Aiya.

“Now if you Could So Kindly Hand me My Daughter, Me and my Husband Will be On Our way.” She Said, Smirking at Itsuki.

But Itsuki Stepped away From Her, “No For all we know You could Be Hurting her Just Like Eri Over here.” Itsuki Said.

Haruka Clenched her Teeth Together, Clenching Her Fists as well, “Now Now, I don’t believe you Have any Solid Proof of that.” She Said Slowly Loosing her Cool Demeanor.

Itsuki Waved Her Hand Pushing Haruka away from them and into a Wall that was the Foundation of the Yakuza Base.

“The Fact your A Traitor is Enough Proof.” She Said Hugging Aiya Closer to her.

She Stood Up Growling, “Give me back my Daughter.” She Gave her One Last Warning Before Firing Up Her First Quirk, Blood Manipulation.

Itsuki Shook her head, “No, She’s Gonna Have a Better Mother Then you.” Itsuki Said, Stepping away once More.

Threads Of Blood Shot From Haruka’s Hand and Upper arm, “Last Chance, Give her back and I won’t Kill you.” She warned One Last Time.

Itsuki Flat Out Refused, “No.”

She Raised Her Hand Sending the Blood Flying At her Body In the Form Of Spikes, Blood Spikes.

The Young Male Held Eri Close to him as Itsuki Shouted out the Order For Him to Run with Eri But a White Gloved Hand Stopped Him.

“Yeah, No.” Kai Said Before taking the Glove off and Disassembling Him, Dropping Eri Right into Kai’s Arms as Haruka Battled Itsuki.

The Blood Threads Eventually Wrapped around her Body Making Aiya Drop into her Own Arms, “I Gave you a Chance Old Friend, and You refused it.” She Sighed Disappointedly at Itsuki.

Haruka Stumbled at the Pain In her Jaw Before Moving to Touch Itsuki With her Bare Hand Before an Explosion blew her Out of the way.

She Landed On her Face, The Explosion Causing Damage to her Whole Entire Body.

Kai Shook his head Moving Over To Keep Aiya Safe Beside Eri, her Teeth Were Clenched in Pain as She Grumbled at Itsuki.

“You Fuckers.” She Cursed, A Wound At the Side of her Abdomen Burned as She stood Back Up but More Rattling Explosions Erupted Into the Ground Throwing her Harshly Against the Wall Once Again, This Time Haruka Felt Some Of Her Frail Bones Shatter Once Again.

Once the Dust Cleared Itsuki Was Nowhere in Sight, But Haruka Was Laid On the Ground, Her Poor Body Beaten to Hell From all those Explosions.

Her Eyes Were Clamped Shut In Pain, She Could Barley Open them Anyway With How Much Damage her Face Took.

“Haruka–Chan..” Eri Whimpered, Kai May Not be Her Favorite Person In the World but She Still Thought Haruka Was Nice.

Chrono Had Come Out By then Moving towards Them, “H–Haruka.” Chrono Could Barely Look at her, Haruka Moaned in Pain Her whole Body was in Pain.

“Chrono Take Eri and Aiya Back to their Rooms, And get Nemoto and Rappa Out here Now.” Kai Ordered Kneeling Down next to His Beat Up Wife.

“Angel, You’ll be Okay.”

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In the Infirmary Multiple Wires and Plugs Were in her Midsection Helping her Recovery From the Attack.

Half Her Face Was In Bandages, an Oxygen Mask Over her Face to Help her Breathe, Itsuki Had Fucked Her Up to Hell and Back.

He Felt Like it was His Fault In Some Way, And Seeing How Eri Was so Withdrawn to Her, He Decided Eri Shouldn’t be Treated This way, For Now the Yakuza Would Make their way Back to Glory Another Way, Perhaps Preying on Smaller Villian Groups Or Weaker Yakuza Gangs.

“Oh Angel, Please wake Up Soon.” Kai Told her Still Comatose Form Before Leaving Towards to the Kitchen to See if Eri’s Food Was Done.

The Chef, A Large Male, Was Just Finishing Up Eri’s Meal, “Ah, Boss, I Just Finished Eri’s Food.” The Man Said, Pushing the White Plate Over to Yosano Who Was Just waiting in her Usual Black Kimono.

“Boss, Would you Like Me to Deliver it to her Room?” Yosano Asked, Her Voice was Soft, Like Most Days but a Bit Softer Since Haruka Wasn’t Present.

He Nodded, “Please Yosano.” He told the Servant, Yosano Gave a Firm Nod Before Taking the Plate Straight to Eri Along with a New Toy Kai Had Bought For the Child.

Kai Walked Back to His Office to do Paperwork While One of the Hired Doctors Working the Nightshift at the Infirmary watched Over Haruka’s Vital Signs, Under Orders to Notify Kai If Anything Changed.

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It was Exactly 4:34 In the Morning When the Doctor Called Him Down to the Infirmary, Her heart Rate Had Sky rocketed to 189.

“Any Idea What’s Causing it?” Kai Asked the Female Who was Currently Taking her blood Pressure, Kai Remembered her from a Small Town Hospital in Camino, Japan.

Her name was Sora Sarada, the Top Doctor in that Hospital Who was Offered a Very Well Paid Job as the On–Call Doctor for the Yakuza Gang, She earned a Permanent Spot with Shie Hissaikai From Pops.

“No Idea Chisaki, It Jumped Up to 189 When I got the Alert About it, I’ve Checked Mostly Everything, The only thing I can think of is Her Injuries are Causing This to Happen.” Sora Replied, Unwrapping the Blood Pressure Cuff Form Haruka’s Arm.

“Since She Has Healing Properties within Both Of her Quirks, The Best Thing is for us to let them Heal On their Own With the aid of Heart Rate Reducing Medicine, Bring it Down a Bit, With the way Her Vitals are Escalating She Probably has Fever too.” Sora Said, Moving Both of Haruka’s Arms to Clasp together On her Midsection.

“We took the Tubes out of her Stomach Last Night after you Tuned in, So far She’s Been Stable, No Problems with the Stomach Wound So far.” Sora Explained.

Sora Then Reached into the Hospital Cabinet Grabbing Some Heart Rate Relief Injection Medicine and Some Fever Reducing Liquid Medicine.

Once Injecting Both Into her IV Sora Sighed Once Seeing her Heart Rate Go Down to 169, Sora Placed the Needles In the Hazardous Bin.

“Chisaki, I only Called you Down here to Inform you of your Wife’s Condition, I’m Sure You Must Have Other Matters to attend to?” Sora Said Dimming the Lights Of the Room.

Kai Shook his head, “I think i’ll take some time to Spend with my Wife.” His Voice was Soft and Sora’s Eyebrows Scrunched in Understanding.

“Of Course Boss, Who do you want in Charge During your “Vacation”?” Sora Asked, Shuffling the Clipboard to Rest Underneath her Arm.

Kai Looked Up, “Kurono, He’s The Only One I Trust.” Kai Said.

Sora’s Only Response Was, “Yes Sir.”

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He Visited Her Every Day She was in that Damned Clinic Infirmary, Waiting for her Healing Properties to heal her Wounds Completely.

Sora Was Checking Up on her, In her Medically Induced Coma, She Checked all her Wounds and Made Sure her Respiration Rate Was Stable Before Making a Decision.

“Okay I think We Can Take her Off the Vent, and Wake her Up.” Sora Said, Crossing her arms Over her Chest.

Kai called in all of the Eight Bullets or Precepts to See this Moment, if their Beloved Queen would awaken From her Comatose State.

Eri and Aiya Were there too Along with Yosano and Two other Female Servants, Sora Unhooked the Tubes From the Ventilator and Worked on Taking the Tube Out Of her Throat.

Sora Extracted it and Then Awaited for her To wake from Her Long Term Slumber.

Suddenly a Coughing Noise Came from Haruka’s Body, She Coughed As She Tried to Sit Up in the Bed.

Kai Stopped Her, “No Stay Down Sweetheart, You Just Woken Up.” Kai Said Softly Helping her Lay back Down on the White thin Sheets.

“I need to Run a Few More Tests Before I can Deem you, Okay.” Sora Said, and After a Through Examination She Cleared her to Move back into Her and Kai’s Shared Bedroom But Was Under Bed Rest Orders For 2 Weeks Just to Ensure there wern’t any Complications With her Procedures and Near Death Experience.

Kai Would take Care of her Every Need.

“Pure”

Kai Chisaki x Oc

Chapter Two: “Purity and Captivity.”

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Yosano, a Female Servant Who Worked Under Kai, Came into his Office Upon Being Called in by The Man himself.

“Lord Overhaul?” She Questioned, Her Face Scrunched Up Upon seeing the Young Woman Perched Uncomfortably On his Couch as Kai Had a Gloved Hand Placed on her Shoulder.

The Woman Had Mid Length Black Hair, A Purple Shade Of Eyes, and Was Wearing a Traditional Black and Red Kimono, and a Single Charm that Read, Shie Hissaikai’s Property Was across her Wrist.

“Ah Yosano, This Young Woman Will be Staying her as my Mob Wife, Please Bath Her and Give Her New Clothes From The Wardrobe I Picked For her.” Kai Told Yosano.

Chiyo’s Face Scrunched Up at the Word Mob Wife, She was not in love with this Man What so Ever.

Yosano Gave a Brisk Nod Before Kai Gently Took Chiyo’s Wrist Attaching a Small Black Metal Bracelet Around it.

“This Is a Shock Bracelet, If you Try to Escape Out of the Base’s Entrance It will Shock you and Set off an Alarm We Will all Here.” Kai Explained Locking the Bracelet With a Metal Key, One Of a Kind.

He Patted Chiyo’s Head Softly Then Nodded to Yosano, Who Motioned for Chiyo to Follow Her.

The Two Walked to A Expensive Bathroom, The Tub was Large and Already filled with Hot, Clean Bath Water By another Female Servant.

Yosano Nodded to the Woman, Who Had Blonde Hair Tied into a Tight Ponytail above her head, She Wore a White and Red Kimono Also With the Same Charm Yosano had.

She Looked at the Own Bracelet She had on to find it said the Same Saying, “Shie Hissaikai’s Property.”

“Monika, Thank you, You May Return to the Servant Quarters.” Yosano Told Monika, She Nodded Leaving the Bathroom Closing the Door Behind Her.

She Helped Chiyo Strip From Her Dirtied Clothes and Into the Warm Bath Water, She Gently Scrubbed Her soft Skin.

“Chiyo, Please If you Ever Need anything, the Shie Hissaikai Life Is Getting to you, Come to me.” She Told Chiyo Gently Hushing Her Words When a Rap of Knock on the White Door Interrupted there Conversation.

It was Once again Monika Who held a Freshly Clean and Warm Towel, Yosano Nodded to the Servant Coming back to Chiyo.

“Up.” She Said Softly, She Obliged, Something about Yosano made her as a Mother Figure to Chiyo, Since Her Own Mother Had abandoned her at a Young Age.

Yosano Dried her Off Before Grabbing the Clothes She Picked Out, Some Black Shorts and A Large White T–Shirt.

“Here Put These On, I’ll wait Outside and then Escort You to your Room.” Yosano said Before Shutting the Door Behind her.

Yosano Seemed Like a Nice Servant, It was a Nice Change from the Other servants Who Didn’t Utter a Word Other Then Yes Sir or Ma’am.

Chiyo Shifted Into the Freshly Cleaned Clothes Monika had Prepared for Her, Luckily The Shirt Was Just Her Size, Which Made Her Ponder On How Kai Had Known her Exact Size.

She Soon Came Out Where Yosano Was Waiting, She Gave a Small Smile to Her Smaller Form.

They Began Walking to Her Room, When Yosano Spoke Up once More, “During your Stay Here, Their are Servants On Shift 24/7 Each Day, Most of them Are Female, Anything you Need Just get their Attention During their Nightly and Daily Rounds, I’m on the Nightshift.” Yosano Explained to Chiyo.

Chiyo Shook her head at the Big Chunk of Information She Just Received Before Yosano Continued, “As Chisaki’s Wife You have Highest Chain Of Power Alongside Him, Anything You ask For is Yours.” Yosano Said Stopping at a Big White Door Once More.

“This Is Your Room, Since You Have that Shock Bracelet On Overhaul Changed His Mind about Chaining you to Your Bed, The Door Locks Automatically at night and Had an Alarm Set For If you Somehow Open It at Night, Please Don’t, Chisaki can Hear it in his Office too, it’s For the Best.” Yosano Said Before Closing it Behind Her Once Chiyo Was Settled into Bed.

The Soft Pillow on the Bed, Plush and Soft, She Laid Her Head On top of it Covering herself Up the The Dark Velvet Red Duvet Covers.

She Felt a Lone Tear go Down Her Face at the Fact of Facing Her New Arrangements.

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In the Morning the Door was Opened to Reveal Yosano Holding a Plate Of Freshly Cooked Breakfast from one of the Best Chefs In the Yakuza Base.

“Oh you Poor thing.” She Muttered, Seeing the Dried Tear Tracks On her Pale Cheeks, It Was Obvious She Cried until She Passed Out.

She Set The Plate Down on the Brown Smooth Nightstand, The Lamp Had a Faint Glow In the Darkness Of her Room.

“Chiyo.” She Spoke softly Gently Shaking her awake, Chiyo Sat Up with a Groan Seeing Yosano Holding a White Plate of Some Kind Of Breakfast.

“Chisaki Wants you To eat And Then I Will Escort you to His Office.” Yosano Said, Pushing a Strand of her Black Hair Behind her Ear With Held a Silver Earring to It.

Yosano Once again Left her but Still Stood Outside the Doors Waiting For Chiyo to Finish.

Looking at the Plate It was Some Scrambled Eggs, Two Pieces Of Toast and Gravy Slathered Across the Eggs, a Glass of Orange Juice Right Beside it.

The Plate and Cutlery Seemed Rather Expensive, Hence, Chisaki Obviously being Filthy Rich, if this Was the Life She was Gonna Live, Then She Had No Obvious Problem With it.

Chiyo Began To Eat the Eggs, Humming at the Wonderful Tasing Gravy, Chisaki Obviously had good Cooks and Chefs Inside of the Shie Hissaikai.

Once She was Finished, Yosano Along With another Servant Stood There, She Held Out Her Empty Plate And Glass.

“Ah, Izumi, Please Take her Plate Would You.” She Spoke to the Purple Haired Servant, Izumi, Who was A Few Years Younger then Yosano.

Izumi nodded taking the Dishes Rushing them back to the Kitchen to Be Cleaned.

“Let’s Go, Overhaul Awaits Your Arrival.”

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As Soon as they Made it to his Office, Yosano Knocked Twice, The Code For Each Servant to Flow Before Being Allowed Entry into His Office.

“Come In.” His Deep Voice Rang Out, Yosano Opened the Door, Chiyo Right Beside her.

Kai Smiled at Seeing His, “Wife”, Coming Around to her New Arrangements, “I See you’ve Accepted Your New Way of Life?” Kai Asked, Standing Up from His Paperwork Over his Desk.

Chiyo Nodded, “It’s Probably Better then What I had.” She Admitted, Yosano Smiled At the Woman Beside Her.

Life With Chisaki Could Be Wonderful if you Behaved and Followed the Rules, Well all Except For Eri, Considering she was His Fleshlight For the Anti–Quirk Bullets.

Chiyo Wondered How the Girl Was Now, Eri Seemed Terrified of Kai The Last Time She Saw Her.

Her Red Eyes Widening at Kai’s Every Move, It Reminded her Of Her Step–Father, The One Who Locked her in his Basement to Prevent her From Ever Leaving, and When She Did try to Escape Her Father had a Brutal And Harsh Punishment Waiting Usually in the Form Of Bruises all over her Body.

She Remembered her Own Blue Eyes Widening at Any Sudden Movement he Made Towards Her, Knowing it Only Left to Bad Things Happening to Her.

She was Left With Many Scars Over Her Body as Well, One was Left Over Her Right Eye Where a Tuft of Brown Hair Covered the Scar.

The Incident Had Left Her Blind in her Right Eye, The Once Blue Iris Turning White, From A Knife Almost Cutting Her Right Eye Out.

The First Responders To the Scene took her to the Hospital Hoping To Save her Eyesight in that Right Eye, But the Doctor Told them it was Useless, She Would Never Regain Sight In that Eye.

Another Scar was Left on the Lower Left Side Of Her Jaw, it Ran all the Way Down To her Upper Neck, The Result From One Of her Father’s Brutal Punishments From Trying to Escape One Day.

Then There was One Last One that Ran Down From Her Inner Right Wrist To Her Elbow On that Same arm, That Final Punishment from Her Father Had Almost Killed her and Was the Last Straw For the Police and the Public.

Her Father Died in Prison Two Days Later.

That’s Why Eri Reminded Her So Much of herself, Minus all her Scars, But those Big, Round, Terrified Eyes did.

She Had No Idea How Bad the Experiments with Erin were, But Chisaki Gave her a Job, After they Were Down With The Experiments she Would Calm Eri down, Much Like a Mother Would Do.

Being Someone Who Wanted to Help Eri, She Agreed Immediately to the Position, as Well as Being Named Chisaki’s Wife Of the Shie Hissaikai.

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Bungou stray dogs OC information

Name: “Hayami Akiko.”

Age: 24 Years old.

Abilities: Healing ( Hayami can heal others but Cannot heal herself with just a Touch of her hand to the wounded spot.), Electricity (with just the command of her hands she can summon large amounts of purple electricity to harm her Enemies), Martial arts skills, (everyday she trains herself in the skills of weapons and martial arts)

Affiliation: Port Mafia

Position: Port mafia executive, Port mafia executive Medic/Doctor/healer.

Partner, S/O: Chuuya Nakahara (Port mafia executive)

Additional things: Mostly Hayami is seen working in the infirmary or hospitals owned by the port mafia, on rare occasions she is sent on missions by Mori as an Assassin or Retrieving things valuable to the Port mafia.

Appearance/Face Claim: for this OC I used both Raiden Shogun/Ei, and Shinobu for a face Claim, Hayami uses a Demon slayer katana similar to Shinobu’s laced with poison, and the Electricity Ability is similar to the electro vision Raiden Shogun used in Genshin Impact. Small knives are her go to weapons, on occasions she will use Guns. Hayami’s usual outfit is a black fleece leather jacket, a blue Dress shirt, dark blue skinny jeans, and black combat boots. She wears her hair up in high ponytails most of the time.

A/N: this is the oc I will use for all of my Bungou stray dogs Fics, onehshots, and imagine.

Hiya! i love your content, can i request a dabi x fem!reader with self harm and depression issues who also has frequent panic attacks with dabi comforting her, he's my comfort character!!

Oh Yes I can 💕💕 but First Dear anon, Are you Alright? You can Always Direct Message Me If you Need To Vent Or Just Talk 💕💕

Tw: Self Harm, Panic Attacks, Depression.

Dabi x Fem!Reader || “Shh”

It Didn’t Matter How Many Times You Tried, you Still Ended up in the Same Place as Before When you were Diagnosed With Depression and a Panic Disorder Associated With Trauma, But With Dabi He Made it Significantly Easier to Deal With.

But today Dabi Had to Take care of Some Stuff With the League of Villains, Leaving You alone To Deal With Your Depression and Other Issues, you Could Feel your Wrists Itching, it was Becoming Unbearable, you needed to feel that Pain In order to not feel the Mental Pain as Much.

You Clenched the Bedsheets Tightly Between your Nimble Fingers, you could also Feel the Anxiety Bubbling Up in the Pit Of Your Stomach ready to Explode in your Chest.

You Tried to Tell yourself that it Would Only Be a Few More Hours until Dabi Came Home, But the Itching Feeling was Becoming Unbearable, and Before You Knew it you Were In the Bathroom, Sitting on the Cold Tiled floor With that Damned Blade in your Hand.

Your Hand Shook as You Brought it Closer to your Other Wrist, You Could Feel the Warm Salty Tears Run Down your Cheeks as you Whimpered, What Would Dabi Think of this, Seeing both your Arms Both Bloodied up When He walked in the Door and Found you Like this.

But the Dark Thoughts Overflowing your Mind took Over, Telling you to Just Do It to Help you Feel Better.

So You Ran the Cold Blade over your Gentle Skin allowing it to Cut Sharply Through your Skin, You Hissed and Winced it Pain Seeing how Deep you Cut into the Wrist.

But it Overpowered the Dark Thoughts In your Mind, it Felt Better, It Felt Good, So you made a Second Cut on your Soft Flesh, and Then a third and a Fourth Until your arm and Wrist were Littered With Cuts, Finally The Itching Feeling Went Away as You Quickly Bandaged Your arm Up and Slipped On your Black Hoodie.

Your Mood Was a Bit Better but you Tried to Mask your Feelings as dabi walked into the Home You Two Shared.

“Babe? You Okay?” His Gravelly Voice Asked, His Eyes Scrunching Up with Worry, you Only Weakly Nodded your Head Your Voice Coming Out Softly.

“Of Course, everythings fine.” Your Reply Made him suspicious. Your Eyes Had Looked away From Dabi’s Making it Hard For Him to Believe you, And Once he Saw the Tear Tracks On your Cheeks that were now Dried up he Knew you were Lying but Decided not to push it.

“Okay, I was thinking for Dinner–” but you Cut Him Off Before He Could Even Finish His Sentence, “Don’t Worry about it Dabi, I’ll Cook tonight.” You Said Firmly Already Getting up from the Couch Heading into the Kitchen.

Dabi Raised an Eyebrow, He was thinking More Of Takeout Since you Didn’t look like you Were Feeling to Well.

He Could Already Hear You Getting Out the pots and Pans out to Cook Something, Dabi Stepped into the Threshold of the Kitchen Crossing his arms Across his Chest Leaning against it.

“Honey, If you Don’t Feel like Doing this We Can Always Have Takeout.” Dabi Softly Told you, You Looked Up, Eyes Red, No He Couldn’t Find Out about your Little Episode Earlier.

“It’s Fine Dabi.”

“Okay Doll, What’s Wrong?” Dabi Finally Firmly Asked you, He was Really Worried About you, Considering What you were Going through.

He knew about your Self Harm Issues and Depressive Episodes You Had from Time to Time.

You Opened your Mouth But Closed it Again, Not Knowing What to Tell Dabi, You Were so Ashamed Of yourself, Letting the Addiction take Control Of you Again.

“Doll, It’s Okay You Can Tell me, you Know I won’t Judge you.” Dabi Softly Told you while Running his Hand up and Down your arm Softly.

Of Course you Knew He Wouldn’t Judge you, but The Dark Thoughts Told you Differently, it was hard To Shake that nagging Voice in the Back Of Your Head.

“N–No it’s Not Dabi!” You Finally Let Out a Strangled Sob as you Spoke, You Were so Ashamed Of it That You Couldn’t Even Speak about it So you only Held your Left Wrist Out to Him.

Dabi Slowly lifted the Hoodie Sleeve To Reveal The Cuts that Were Poorly Bandaged on your arm and Wrist, His Eyes Lifted in Understanding and Sympathy for you.

“Oh Doll...” He Cooed Out to you, You Only Sobbed More Harshly, Panic Bubbling up in your Chest as you Did So.

He Pulled you into his Chest, Stroking his Fingers Over your Back, “Shh, Doll, It’s Okay.” He Softly Hushed your Cries.

He had Stopped an Upcoming Panic Attack From Happening as You Finally Began to Calm Down in his Arms.

The Last thing you heard Before Falling Asleep Was, “It’ll be Alright Doll.” you let the Darkness Of Sleep Consume you.

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My Journey with Generalized Anxiety Disorder: Finding Light in the Shadows

It’s early morning, and the world outside my window is waking up. Sunlight filters through the trees, casting soft shadows on the ground. For many, this serene moment might be filled with anticipation for the day ahead, but for me, it’s a battle against an all-consuming feeling that has become a regular part of my life: Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD).

What is Generalized Anxiety Disorder?

Generalized Anxiety Disorder is more than just occasional worry or stress; it’s a chronic condition characterized by excessive, uncontrollable anxiety about various aspects of life. According to the Anxiety and Depression Association of America, GAD can manifest in various physical and emotional symptoms, including restlessness, fatigue, difficulty concentrating, muscle tension, and sleep disturbances. Understanding these symptoms is crucial, as it was the first step in my journey toward acceptance and healing.

The Onset

My struggle began in my late teens. I was a high-achieving student, a dedicated friend, and a loving family member. However, underneath the surface, I felt a constant cloud looming over me. I often found myself worrying about everything—my grades, my relationships, and even mundane tasks like grocery shopping. What started as ordinary stress took a turn when the worries evolved into overwhelming anxiety that made it difficult to carry out daily activities.

I remember sitting in class, my heart racing and palms sweating, while my mind spiraled into a whirlwind of "what ifs." I was terrified of not meeting expectations, both my own and those placed on me by others. This internal pressure was suffocating, and I struggled silently for years, not knowing that I was grappling with a disorder that millions of others also face.

The Turning Point

The turning point in my story came during my sophomore year of college. I experienced a panic attack during an important exam, something I had never encountered before. My breathing became shallow, my vision blurred, and I felt as though I was about to lose control. It was a wake-up call—a moment that forced me to confront the reality of my anxiety rather than ignore it.

Seeking help was daunting, but I knew I could no longer carry this burden alone. I reached out to my campus counseling center and began attending therapy sessions. Initially, I felt embarrassed to admit that I needed help, but I soon learned that vulnerability in seeking support is a sign of strength, not weakness.

The Road to Healing

Therapy became a safe space where I could explore the roots of my anxiety. My therapist equipped me with tools and coping strategies that transformed how I approached my thoughts. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) taught me how to challenge and reframe negative thinking patterns. Mindfulness practices gave me the ability to anchor myself in the present moment, allowing me to step back from the chaos of my mind.

Medication was another integral part of my healing process. With the guidance of a psychiatrist, I found a treatment plan that worked for me. It was a gradual journey, with trial and error, but it eventually helped stabilize my emotional responses, creating a foundation upon which I could build healthier coping mechanisms.

Learning to Live

Living with GAD is a continuous journey; there are still days when anxiety creeps in. However, I’ve learned to embrace it as part of my story rather than letting it define me. I've discovered the importance of self-care, whether that means engaging in regular exercise, practicing yoga, or simply taking time to relax with a good book.

Support from family and friends has been invaluable. Opening up about my experiences has strengthened my relationships and provided a network of understanding individuals who help lift me during challenging moments. Community support groups have also played a significant role in my healing. Connecting with others who share similar struggles has provided a sense of belonging and validation that I often doubted I would find.

Embracing the Future

As I continue to navigate life with GAD, I’ve gained a deeper understanding of myself and the strength that comes from vulnerability. My journey has opened doors to a wealth of knowledge and resources that empower me each day. I’ve learned that it’s okay to ask for help, that I am not alone in this struggle, and that healing is not linear.

In sharing my story, I hope to shed light on the complexities of living with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and to encourage others to seek help and embrace their own journeys. We may face challenges that feel insurmountable, but through connection and understanding, we can find light even in the shadows. No matter how daunting the path may seem, recovery and resilience are achievable. And with every step forward, I grow a little more confident in navigating the beautiful, albeit turbulent, journey of life.

My BSD/DR OC Information/Backstory:

Name: Hayami Aiko

Age: 26 Years old.

Personality: Sadistic, Kind, cold.

Ability: “Heal all that is Lost.” allows the user to heal any wound, Fatal, Minor, Or Mortal. Similar to Yosano’s ability.

Significant Other: Yosano Akiko

Best friend: Ranpo Edogawa

Sexuality: Lesbian

Parents/Parental Figures: Hayami’s Biological Parents are Decreased, Due to some Rival Mafia Organization killing them, her only Main Parental Figure is Fukuzawa, who took her in after Rescuing her from the Port mafia’s grasp.

Backstory: After Her Parents were Killed, Hayami lived on the Streets for a While until Mori Ougai Found her himself, he Raised her Up to her Teen Years in the Port Mafia, Obviously Traumatizing her along the way, until the armed Detective Agency Found Out about it and Decided to Rescue her from Mori. After that She and Yosano became very Fond of Each other, only knowing about each others pasts never telling anyone.

Past affiliation: Port Mafia

Current Affiliation: Armed Detective agency

Skills: Hand To Hand Combat

Hayami is very skilled in hand to hand Combat, often using this to take down enemies in a Stand off.

Super Strength goes along with this, She’s also very skilled with Knives, Specifically Scalpels.

Hayami mainly works with Yosano in the Infirmary, sometimes she works on required Missions with her Main Partners, Dazai and Atsushi, Sometimes Kunikida if needed.

Anytime She Comes in contact or sees Mori in Public or During a Joint Mission with the Port mafia and The armed detective agency, Hayami Feels the need to Hide from him, even though she left the Port mafia with Fukuzawa and Ranpo, Mori Still lays out an offer for her and Dazai both to Rejoin the mafia.

Somehow Hayami is Very Rich, With being a Doctor and all, especially working for the armed Detective Agency, she loves to spend her money on three people, Ranpo, Kyouka, and Yosano. Rarely, on days where she’s feeling Particularly Nice, She’ll treat Dazai to a Shopping Spree.

The only two people from the Port mafia Hayami will treat indifferently to the others are Chuuya, and Kouyou, Kouyou being a mother figure towards Hayami, and Chuuya being like an older brother towards her.

Yosano and Hayami making a powerful Couple team up, both being a perfect Combo of sadistic and healing abilities along with similar trauma’s and Pasts.

Hayami’s VA Japanese: Kei Shindo, Kyoka jiro’s Voice Actor.

Hayami’s VA English: Colleen Clinkenbeard, Momo Yaoyorozu’s English Sub VA.

Face Claim: Shinobu Kocho:

Big Question!

Anyone wanna Request Something?

My Ask Box is Always Open, Right Now For DSMP Characters.

Obviously Only Platonic Asks, Fluff, Angst and Hurt/Comfort!

My Blog is a Safe Space for People Who find Comfort In these Fics I Make :D

How old are you and how do you feel about someone talking dirty to you in your dm?

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I am 16 about to Turn 17 in October of this Year, and I am alright with Someone Talking Dirty to me in my DM, as long as it Does not get too Uncomfortable 😅

“Vacation Troubles”

Oc Portrayed as: Nezuko Kamado from KNY/Demon Slayer.

Quirk: ‘Demon’

Allows The Oc to Turn into a Demon While Still Looking Completely Human, Only Differences are her Pupils and Eyes, Develops Claws in place of Normal Fingernails, and Supernatural Veins On the Skin.

Significant Other: Bakugou Katsuki

JJ: Do you have a bobby pin?

John B: Yeah *searches his hair*

John B: Oh, no, wait- I’m not a nine year old girl.