This is the magic lucky word count. Reblog for creativity juice. It might even work, who knows.
I picked up
one of those perfect published
poetry anthologies
flipping through its pages
fumbling for this authors sense of style
tripping headfirst into the phrase
“if writing would kill you, would you still write?”
my joints crack on impact
god there are weeks
when i can’t even dream
of pen and paper’s sordid affairs
but there are moments upon moments
where it’s the only impulse
I have left
i may never achieve
that coveted haven
on a barnes and nobles
new releases shelf
but god damn
i
will
write
until
i
die
or
i
cease
to
be
complete
marie howe, in an interview with krista tippett of on being
To try to do anything in this day and age is courageous. Even if you suck at least you’re fucking doing something. You’re creating something. You are doing SOMETHING. That in itself is a courageous act.
*takes your face gently in my hands and looks sincerely into your eyes* listen. your home does not need to look like a showroom. homes are meant to be lived in, and that means a certain amount of mess. it's okay if there is clutter on your desk or if you don't remember the last time you cleaned your oven. mess is morally neutral. but at the same time, you deserve to live in an environment that is safe and comfortable, and that means someone has to clean sometimes. things like mold, spoiled food, and dirty litter boxes are genuine health hazards and need to be dealt with before they make someone sick. think of cleaning less as "my home needs to be completely spotless" and more as "I am an animal and I need a habitat that is free of hazardous material." it's okay. *kisses you on the forehead and tucks you into a blanket*
(and of course it is always acceptable and even good for you to ask someone else to help you with cleaning if it's physically or mentally difficult for you. even if you're paying them to do it.)
blistered fingertips scratch against constricting linen
i lay in a bed of moss
underneath my grandmothers afghan
and woke surrounded in mold
the clay beneath
tugs, tearing open old gashes
revealing layers of decay
interlocking rigid muscle tissue
every motion scattering spores
i find myself coughing, clenching
crawling through the colonies
for
i am not
your
host
i am only
flesh
and
blood
and yet
that flesh is powdered in mildew
that blood is blooming
i will not yield
i swear
i will taste fresh air
alongside a mushroom omelette
without an inkling of a sour memory
but i fear
i am
rotting
Richard Hugo, Essay on Poetic Theory: The Triggering Town
- Silas Denver Melvin @sweatermuppet, Grit Poetry Collection