Silence Lay Steadily.

EVERYTHING IS ALL REUSED!!!!!!!!

deja vu - olivia rodrigo/i bet you think about me - taylor swift/unknown/the black dog - taylor swift/deja vu - olivia rodrigo/cardigan - taylor swift/brideshead revisited (1945)/unknown/deja vu - olivia rodrigo/unknown/unknown/cardigan - taylor swift/straw for the fire: from the notebooks of theodore roethke/the black dog - taylor swift/deja vu - olivia rodrigo

going through a break up that's not even a break up

There’s something soooooooooooooo beautiful in the way she sings, “And I'm just. getting. color. back. into. my. face, I'm just mad as hell 'cause I loved this place for so long.”

Like singing through it with gritted teeth, just barely starting to come out of the fog, realizing she survived (but at what cost) and it was hard-won, knowing she was dying and she had to do it, but it still hurts because she once loved the home that turned into a prison, she loved who they were in that home at one point, but she’s mad that it all blew up and she’s mad that she let herself stay in that place for long now that she has confirmation by leaving that it would have killed her. There’s exhaustion, there’s anger, there’s tenderness, there’s resignation all at the same time in her voice.

It’s such a stunning song.

it feels like i've killed someone and i can't wash my hands free of the blood or whatever taylor meant with "you're still all over me like a wine stained dress i can't wear anymore"

AND THEY NICKNAMED HER "THE BOLTER"

sources under the cut

mirrorball / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / who's afraid of little old me? / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / you're on your own, kid / mirrorball / i'll give you the sun by jandy nelson / chloe or sam or sophie or marcus / taylor in miss americana / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / midnight rain / bianca sparacino via the love journals / who's afraid of little old me? / dazzled, precise by anna de noailles / default states by nicole / mirrorball / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / dear reader / collection of taylor lyrics by me / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / my boy only breaks his favorite toys / castles crumbling / dear reader / midnights foreword / anti-hero / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / peace / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / the bolter / white horse / the lucky one / long story short / you have always been a performer never just a person by fatima aamer bilal / clara bow

Thinking about the implications of "do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?" and her quite literally comparing that breakup to death multiple times

we went from reputation to tortured poets department reallyyyt fast

gold rush - taylor swift

you’re all ‘ohh i love hole’ but now when i’m about to throw you in this bottomless pit (which is a form of hole btw) you’re all ‘please spare me’ fucking hypocrite