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genuinely do NOT want the world to see me because i don’t think that they’d understand

my plan for 2025 is to do things

by s.philly.time.capsules

Was I raised without love or was I born unlovable?

Do you think that in every timeline

In every alternate universe

I’ll always be this broken?

I don’t need a villain in my life. I am my villain. The enemy is me, the chaos is me, the reason I can’t find peace is me

the silence after looking at yourself in the mirror

the silence after relapsing

the silence after breaking down in front of people

the silence after being screamed at

the silence when no one believes you

the silence after a jealous outburst

the silence after crying so much you can’t even remember what you were crying about

the silence after somebody leaves your life

12-21-2024, 4 PM

All of the full moons of 2024

I want something → I yearn for it like crazy → I finally get it → it doesn't make me as happy as I thought it would and I'm left craving something else → I spend my days thinking I will never be truly satisfied with my life

no one talks about the rage you feel when u realize that every adult in your life has failed u

Always always too fucking much yet never enough

i’m not sure what the fuck i’m waiting for but i keep waiting day after day for it to happen

Autumn (1972) dir. by Marcel Hanoun

date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

being alive is like: you want to go home. you don't know where home is. you want to go home. you don't know where home is. you want to go home. you haven't known for a long time. you want to go home but you don't know where you'd go. you want to go home you want to go home you want to go home

"But you were fine 2 seconds ago"

yeah and now im not

"But you said you were getting better"

yeah and now im getting worse