Carenjadee - Untitled

list of things I want to be:

mysterious

angelic

enigmatic

ethereal

boisterous

list of things I am:

introverted

tired

sleepy

confused

unproductive

message for him--

hey, you’re never gonna see this but i just have to write this down or else it’s gonna kill me on the inside. so me and you have history, i loved you and you loved me at least that’s what we’d say. but i broke it off well because i just couldn’t handle the “school stress” and having the thought i could only see you once a week, i just couldn’t. so at that time of course i thought it was a good idea to end it with you and so you could move on and maybe actually get a girl that is there with you and you can actually see in person. then i texted you because im a coward and said some lame excuse and not actually tell you whats wrong which would’ve been a better idea but i didn’t i just broke it off. then i immediately “liked” someone which wasn’t worth it, then i guess i “moved on”. well that’s what i thought, i was wrong. all the the people i had “feelings” for were distractions. what i mean is that me having those “feelings” for them was a distraction to how i really feel. i feel like im going crazy, because every second im not busy thinking about whatever, im thinking about what you’re doing or what we could’ve been doing at that moment. so all those people i thought i had feelings for were a distraction of how im actually missing you. but yet again im dumb because you’ve moved on and you probably hate how im crawling back to you right now when you’ve moved on so im sorry that my actual feelings and thoughts just hit me now because most of the time i have no idea what im doing. yet again you’re never gonna see this.

“Feminism Includes All Genders”

"of all weapons in the world, i now know love to be the most dangerous. for i have suffered a mortal wound. when did i fall so deeply under your spell, ms. bennet? i cannot fix the hour or the spot or the look or the words which lay the foundation. i was in the middle before i knew i began. but a proud fool i was. i have faced the harsh truth." - mr. darcy

keep me - khalid

singing our favorite songs but the funny this is every time we did you'd always get the words wrong. and i was your biggest fan, you should never forget it. i bet you no man doesn't love you like i did. doesn't love you lioe i did. does he love you like i did? no, no, no.