Curate, connect, and discover
If you're a kid/teen who wants nothing more than to leave home for no reason other than to spread out or find something new or move in with a new friend a thousand miles away from home, this is for you. Hell, if you’re 28 years old and moving out of your parents home, let me tell you this: Its going to fucking hurt to do it. It doesn't matter if its for a new opportunity or if its for an old friend; leaving your home behind for an extended amount of time will hurt. It will hurt so goddamn bad you'll feel like your heart is being clenched by a clawed hand and tugging... But this reason for leaving home will be so damn good your heart will stay in your chest. Its almost a torture but at the same time, it feels so good.
Its okay to cry for you old home and miss it. Its okay to even mourn it if need be. Its okay to cry your fucking eyes out and even think on going back home instead. But don’t. If this is really something you want or need to do for a better future or better future for your family, you’ll find a way to deal with these conflicting emotions and knock them together somehow. Find an outlet in this new place and let your hurt and happiness come out somehow. Writing is this outlet for me. It helps a shocking amount.
I just fucking wrote this and I’ve stopped crying and I feel such a huge sense of relief that I know I can fucking do this. I can fucking move to wherever the hell I want to and power through it, even if it hurts to leave my family.
09
The Messengers pad through scorched fields, their targets in their view. They, unlike the Shepherd, do not pity the husks nor their stories, they do as told.
Their masks merely accessories to the red beauty, made to contain themselves. Their faces fragile beauty.
Their targets, often unconscious, always receive : you cannot escape from what makes you. They become unaware of the process, shielded from the pain. A mercy.
Over time they begin to forget, it is of no worries, they do not need to remember.
It is easier when they forget.
...
The Messengers return home once the job is done, there is nothing for them there.
Clearing the air
It has been a couple of months, but I have finally gotten an insight on the Rhack community drama revolving around me and few of my friends. As I recently found out it is believed we were mean towards people, we called them names, posted swastikas in the public channels on the community's DC server and many more things...
I'm posting this message here as I absolutely cannot believe the audacity of whoever believes it's okay to accuse someone of being a n@zi and calling names for no apparent reason whatsoever. Of course none of us (namely me, Grumppa, Noraka and Mar) ever did anything that would even come close to such a thing and so far none of the accusations have been backed up by any sort of evidence (screenshots, messages, ...) so I still do not understand where this all came from?
Is this some sort of bad third party prank? A misunderstanding? Or is there actually somebody out there trying to actively wipe us out of the community?
Thanks to this stupid charade I have lost one of my best friends who unfortunately is one of those who blindly believe the lies and misinformation that's been spreading around. I do not want to let that go just like it's nothing. Fake accusations and public claims that somebody is a n@zi are not okay ... not okay to the point it could result into being solved by higher authorities.
If you are still out there and reading this: By this message I claim my innocence and hope that karma will chase down those who have caused this. I do not wish to come back to the community, not if all it takes to break people's trist is one well aimed lie. I simply wish to clear my name. And not only mine.
Please do not believe these accusations, they are not true and we have done nothing wrong.
Sincerely, yours Ady.