Loser (affectionate) (i Love My Son)

aaaaaaa i wish that sara had come to the event. this bulletin board is honestly probably one of my favorite pieces of character interactions ever. i don't understand how anyone can say that itto and sara hate each other they could've been such a cute ship god i wish they'd have more in game interactions THE EVENT WOULD'VE BEEN PERFECT

i find it cute that she gave ei an invitation though, it kinda feels like she's trying to make itto.. happy? idk i mean why on earth would you give your shogun an invitation to a music festival (ik it's a bit of a reach im sorry)

god i love these panels so much. mafuyu finally does something in his relationship with uenoyama that isn't something that he already did with yuki, so he's finally truly moving forward. the stuff he did in the chapters before this also show him healing, but he still kind of copied yuki. it's like he was retaking a course he already had the notes for. although to be fair, there aren't that many things you can do differently in highschool relationships i guess. and uenoyama finally gets one of mafuyu's firsts :)

ok i have some bsd thoughts that i need to get out of my system

imagine how much more impactful it would've been if dazai didn't know that chuuya was just pretending to be a vampire. IMAGINE THE ANGST. dazai thought that he mostly had the situation under control. sure, he couldn't control everything, but there weren't that many wild variables in the prison, right? boom fyodor reveals his hidden card, so dazai starts to get desperate. this was the one thing he wasn't prepared for. he was so sure that chuuya was going to be safe outside, and why didn't ango tell him that chuuya was turned into a vampire? but suddenly he feels the gravity changing in the elevator. maybe chuuya was still in there somewhere, maybe he could bring chuuya back to him. so that's why he starts his speech. but no, chuuya fires the shot. just as he's about to give up and hope that the ada can save the world without him, he feels the bullets being stopped right before they hit him, just like how chuuya used to stop them whenever they did their little act. AND THEN CHUUYA LAUGHS AT HIM AND PATCHES HIM UP AFTER THEY MAKE SURE THAT FYODOR ISN'T WATCHING ANYMORE AAAHHHHH

also who's gonna get transferred WAS THAT JUST A FUNNY LITTLE JOKE MORI MADE CAUSE HE WAS IN ON DAZAI'S PLAN OR WHAT HELLOOOOOOO I NEED TO KNOW

accidentally out this in the same post w/e GUYS SHE GAVE EI AN INVITATION IM GONNA FUCKING CRYYYY

Admittedly, something I’ve liked in the past couple of chapters is that even with an occasional barb or complaint thrown in, there’s been a surprising lack of hostility between Dazai and Chuuya.

Like, we’ve had crumbs of this — of them caring for each other and looking after each other — before but it’s been so consistent in the last few chapters and it feels so very in our faces as well, front and center.

Like, Chuuya keeps trying to almost console and reassure Dazai or at least help him figure out what’s wrong. Dazai’s never been as open or expressive, this chapter especially with him practically thinking out loud, that I can recall. Dazai’s showing behaviors that I don’t remember seeing before but fromChuuya’s words they’re habits of his.

They’re not constantly shooting insults or attacking each other (whether with words or physical moves). They’re basically just chilling as the danger is supposedly past (until Dazai got his revelation).

And I think it’s because they’re presumably completely alone for once.

They’re not in the Mafia base. They’re not in enemy territory with unconscious looks and their retrieval target close enough to possibly hear or see them if they wake up. They’re not stuck in a place surrounded by a dangerous ability or where the location of their allies is unknown, but could come across them at any time.

This might be the first time in the main manga where we can get a glimpse of what they’re like simply with each other.

And it’s really not so bad.

something about Dazai being comfortable enough around Chuuya to be vulnerable and let him see his genuine reactions (especially his genuine shock) as he processes out loud is SO SO IMPORTANT TO ME

plus Chuuya not being shocked to see the genius at work tells us this isn’t the first time he’s seen Dazai actively figuring things out in real time…

the way Chuuya knows Dazai's nervous habits— noticing that Dazai is worried, and subtly checking on him. the way Dazai drops his facade in favor of putting all of his focus into the mental game at hand is such an obvious sign of trust & closeness for someone like Dazai, whose facade is his main form of defense

how they interact with each other in the downtimes when there’s nobody's watching…

all i can think is, look how far they’ve come since they were 16 when Dazai couldn’t trust anyone with his plans. how even now, Dazai is always putting up his “all according to plan” front, even with the agency. how Chuuya is the one person we’ve seen him truly drop the mask around, and Chuuya doesn’t bat an eye. even their banter is ongoing, but subdued.

soukoku and their subtle displays of intimacy will be the death of me 💔

!!!! BSD CH 114 spoilers !!!!

"Quit it with that habit of rolling all over the ground whenever you're worrying. It's annoying to look at, Dazai" I CANT I CANT I CANT OH MY GOD THEY'RE SO FUCKING CUTE WHAT THE HELL AH YES OF COURSE CHUUYA KNOWS THAT DAZAI ROLLS ALL OVER THE GROUND WHENEVER HE'S WORRYING GOD ASAGIRI WHEN WILL WE GET AN ACTUAL HEART TO HEART BETWEEN THEM

you've really been keeping tabs on him haven't you chuuya truly the best of ex-partners

i still find it so funny that they literally had to have kenji tell us that "IT'S OKAY IT'S OKAY EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE" because of how depressing the situation was

cyno is so silly i love it

Imagine the teasing imagine the "You really thought I'd get turned that easily? Come on now, Dazai. I thought you'd have a little more faith in me." and Dazai's just dazed and truly shocked by Chuuya for the first time since they were 15.

There's also some incredibly weird tension now because Dazai basically poured his entire heart out to Chuuya. Twice. But there's no way they'll even try to unravel whatever's going on between them now. Dazai just sits silently while Chuuya patches him up, way too relieved that everything somehow worked out.

AND THENNN we get the thing about trusting people. I mean Dazai was literally hoping that Chuuya would come back to him through the power of friendship and whatnot. I'm in headcanon hell help me.

ok i have some bsd thoughts that i need to get out of my system

imagine how much more impactful it would've been if dazai didn't know that chuuya was just pretending to be a vampire. IMAGINE THE ANGST. dazai thought that he mostly had the situation under control. sure, he couldn't control everything, but there weren't that many wild variables in the prison, right? boom fyodor reveals his hidden card, so dazai starts to get desperate. this was the one thing he wasn't prepared for. he was so sure that chuuya was going to be safe outside, and why didn't ango tell him that chuuya was turned into a vampire? but suddenly he feels the gravity changing in the elevator. maybe chuuya was still in there somewhere, maybe he could bring chuuya back to him. so that's why he starts his speech. but no, chuuya fires the shot. just as he's about to give up and hope that the ada can save the world without him, he feels the bullets being stopped right before they hit him, just like how chuuya used to stop them whenever they did their little act. AND THEN CHUUYA LAUGHS AT HIM AND PATCHES HIM UP AFTER THEY MAKE SURE THAT FYODOR WASN'T WATCHING ANYMORE AAAHHHHH

also who's gonna get transferred WAS THAT JUST A FUNNY LITTLE JOKE MORI MADE CAUSE HE WAS IN ON DAZAI'S PLAN OR WHAT HELLOOOOOOO I NEED TO KNOW