1. so your s/o can pick you up effortlessly
2. free piggy back rides from your friends
3. so you don't have to worry about being too heavy when you sit in someone's lap
4. so people will lend you their clothes (and they'll be too big on you)
5. when people buy you clothes, they'll get the smallest size (and worry that a size S might be too big)
6. someone from a k-beauty youtube video said "losing w31ght makes you 10x prettier"
7. to fit into p3tite and aesthetic clothes (eg brandy melville)
8. so you don't have the gross feeling of your skin touching (thighs rubbing together, stomach rolls, etc)
9. to look effortlessly beautiful doing anything
10. you'll sweat less
11. to look good in tight clothes
12. to be able to wear revealing outfits and still look cute
13. you'll look cute and small in oversized clothes, instead of looking b1gger
14. so you can wear a bikini
15. to feel more confident
16. people will treat you better
17. if you stick to it and work hard to lose the w31ght, then you'll be better than everyone who has failed to do so. you're willpower and self-control will be admired and envied by your peers
18. people will pay more attention to you
19. people will worry and care about you more
20. for the sk1nny/pretty privilege
21. to make people jealous of you
22. to prove that you can
23. to look good wearing anything, even if it isn't a good outfit
24. so you won't be anxious about being w31ghed at the doctor's
25. to look prettier in pictures
26. so you can go clothes shopping without being
insecure
27. no more dressing room breakdowns
28. so your s/o can fit their fingers around your wrists and their hands around your thighs (or so you can do it yourself)
29. for the th1gh g4p (duh)
30. to be small enough to use your s/o as a bed
31. so your s/o can easily lift you with one hand
32. so you don’t have to waste another summer hating urself
33. to be desirable
34. you'll have a higher chance of people stopping you on the street for photographs/modeling scouts/etc
35. to be more attractive
36. you'll use less products (body wash, lotion) if there's less of you (so you'll end up saving money too!)
37. people will take you more seriously
38. you'll be able to move through crowds easier
39. to boost your self-esteem, feel better about yourself, and be happier
40. you can purchase the smallest size when shopping online and you won't have to worry about it being too small
41. to be able to shop at cute online shops that only carry smaller sizes (brandy, yesstyle, other asian stores)
42. to look good while e4ting, instead of like a f4tt, greedy p1g...
43. to finally be in control
44. so you don't feel jealous/sad when you see other people's b0di3s/thln$p0, because THEY'LL be envying YOU
45. to have your pics/b0dychecks put in a thln$p0 compilation
46.to finally feel pretty
47. to take up less space
48. to be able to wear low rise bottoms
49. so you can talk about your w31ght and not feel ashamed
50. if you actually stick to it and r3strict, your appetite/ stomach will be a lot smaller once you reach your ugw, so you'll naturally e4t less!!
quest bars for the win bc they're the only protein bars that won't floor me with a stomach ache after eating them
every monday i go on crumbl's site and look at all the cals in the weekly lineup cookies like im clocking in for a job
maybe when spring makes its way into the seeds of trees, it will plant one into my mind too. one that will cleanse my soul of everything that is sadistic and destructive about me.
the seed will bloom into a beautiful flower that is nourished by the affection of the sun, beaming on the body i try to deplete of its forces day after day. the scent of the pollen will inspire in me a new kind of love for myself that is lost in the covers of my bed.
i desperately need this flower to stop my body from withering away as my mind starts to reach new lows i’ve never seen before.
this disorder is fucking ruining my life
okay so this is probs a bit tmi but does anyone else weigh themselves n4k3d?
i’ve heard that this is only a thing with ed’s. like for me, i have to weigh myself n4k3d bc i feel like clothes make the scale go higher and well my brain wants to see the lowest number possible.
REASONS TO KEEP GOING:
so when it’s the first of january, you no longer have to make “lose weight” a new years resolution
because you have been craving your dream body for way longer than that high calorie, greasy food you’re craving right now
because as much as people try to deny is your worth is tied to that number on the scale.
because of how many summers have already gone by and you’re still saying “next summer”
because thin is beautiful. thin is classy and elegant. thin is chic and feminine.
so that you look good even if your fashion sense lowkey sucks. why? because skinny is the outfit.
because that 11 year old little girl deserves the skinny future she dreamed of.
because you owe it to yourself to go through life in a beautiful, fit body
because if you’re actually honest with yourself, fat doesnt fit your aesthetic does it?
because you dont deserve to complain about having to start over when its you who keeps giving up.
because you actually have potential and you’re just wasting it all by allowing yourself to be fat
being nervous/excited is the best laxative trust
can they invent food that doesn't make u want to destroy everything in the house
what day even is it
Ah isn't loss of appetite the biggest blessing?
• • • •
Perhaps I feel faint, perhaps I need the focus today.
Oh but I can't.
My head is spinning, reeling, and I can't stop thinking.
But at least it gives me a break from eating.
• • • •
18 hrs of work and nonstop thought.
Tonight I will stare in the mirror, as I always do.
Exhausted.
• • • •
But euphoric. I'll trace my bones, admire my stomach's concave. Know I'm in control.
At least of this.
• • • •
More work.
Then in 24 hrs the scale will show my progress.
Tell me in thin, worthy, beautiful... right.
• • • •
Oh to be perfect, see my flaws melt away.
To finally feel proud.
caffeine is pumping thru my blood thanks to this crazy pink monster I need loud music asap ohmygod