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In highschool I wrote a story about a middle-generation of stellar travelers. Their parents were born on earth and left as children, and the middle generation will not live long enough to see their destination. They live their entire lives on the ship and I wrote about them trying to find their place in everything. They will never know blue skies and warm beaches and open fields with warm breezes. They’ll never know birdsong or crickets or frogs. They’ll never hear the rain on the roof of a dreary day. I never could find the right way to end the story. I wanted it to be a happy ending, but I didn’t know how to do it.

I realize now that it was a book about me dealing with depression before I even knew it. Looking back at how blatant the projecting was, it’s obvious now. It wasn’t then.

In the story, the middle-generation people are lost. They’re apathetic. They’re just a placeholder. The only job they have is to keep the ship running, have kids, and die. As the middle generation of people began becoming adults, suicide rates were skyrocketing. Crime and drug rates were jumping. This generation was completely apathetic because they felt that they had no use.

In the story, a small group of people in the middle-generation create the Weather Project. They turn the ship into a terrarium. They make magnificent gardens and take the DNA of animals they took with them and recreate them and they make this cold, metal spaceship that they have to live their entire lives on into a home. They take what little they have and they break it and rearrange it into something beautiful. They take this radical idea and turn the ship into a wonderful jungle of trees and birds and sunshine.

And I realize now how much it reflects my state of mind as I transitioned from a child into an adult while dealing with depression. You always hear “it gets better” and “when you’re older things will be easier” and I was so sick of waiting for it to get better. I was in the middle-generation stage. And I was sick of it. I was so sick of waiting.

When I was in highschool I didn’t know how to end the story. I didn’t know how to have a happy ending. I didn’t have the life experience then to finish the story in a meaningful way. I didn’t know how to make it better for these middle-generation characters.

But now that I’m older, I’m learning. That if you sit and wait for things to get better, it never will. You have to take your life and break it apart and rearrange it into something beautiful. You have to make the cold metal ship into the garden that you deserve. You have to make your own meaning. You have to plant your own garden.

You have to teach yourself that being happy is not a radical idea.

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For all your dnd purposes

Here is a free pdf of the players handbook

Here is a free pdf of xanathars guide to everything

Here is a free pdf to monsters manual

Here is a free pdf to tashas cauldron of everything

Here is a free pdf to dungeon master’s guide

Here is a free pdf to volo’s guide to monsters

Here is a free pdf of mordenkainen’s tomb of foes

For all your dnd purposes

i’ve been crying a lot lately but this tweet made me giggle

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Technoblade never dies. He lives on in our hearts and minds and memories.

Like the rest of you, I have been so sad and heartbroken and crying more tears than I thought I had. I felt like I had to make something to honor him. This post is no where near enough of a tribute to him, but it’s a start.

I love you so much, Technoblade. You were and will continue to be a huge influence on me. You changed my life, and I will always remember you.

Here is where you can donate to the Sarcoma Foundation of America

[Technoblade - ‘so long nerds’, Maya Angelou - ‘When I Think of Death’, Winnie the Pooh, Frostbyte Freeman on Twitter, Technoblade - ‘edgy teenager talks about the meaning of life - skywars’, Frank Sinatra - ‘My Way’, Mary Elizabeth Frye - ‘Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep’, Philza - ‘distractions’, Technoblade - ‘preparing for war (dream SMP).]

things we learned from technoblade

1. do not give the world an inch. make it conform to you

2. persevere, always

3. repay kindness tenfold

4. lie about your personal information online

5. when pressure is too much, it's okay to take a step back

6. seek out love and friendship actively. attach yourself to people you like and find ways to spend more time with them.

7. show love. (saying it is well and good, but showing it goes such a long way.)

8. win. no matter what it is, you can win, and you will

9. topple governments. embrace anarchy. fight god. go to hell. win.

god I just. love ruthlessness as a character trait so much. sexy sexy sexy

me: *showing vacation pics* and this is from where we went t- 

 guy who plays geoguessr for 14 hours a day: I know.

I don’t FIND it surprising at all!

Clean version of this sketch

im so tired of fucking dsmp lore discourse its so stupid

I hate being a customer I hate doing that to someone

we need to romanticize lying on the floor and not doing anything

*sticks my hand in your nucleus and swirls your dna around*

Every time I think about how c!Dream crafted a whole ass fake Hero's Journey for c!Tommy just to fool him extra well... breaths heavy heartbeat racing Staged Finale and its trickery with the narrative oh how I adore you.

Mood.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

It's Finally Happening - Changes to Dream SMP, 3rd Life/Last Life, and other SMP fandoms!

Hello!

Some exciting changes are coming to Video Blogging RPF over the next few weeks! We are happy to announce that Dream SMP, 3rd Life | Last Life SMP Series, Empires SMP, and a number of other Survival Multiplayer (SMP) Minecraft roleplay fandoms will be getting their very own fandom tags. These changes will be starting 10 May 2022, beginning with Dream SMP.

We want to thank you for your patience both in getting to this point, and in the coming weeks as these changes take place! Our volunteers have worked hard towards this change since 2021, and we will do our best to make this transition go as smoothly as possible.

Keep reading

FORGET EVERYTHING ELSE THIS EDIT SAVED MY LIFE

https://www.reddit.com/r/MinecraftChampionship/comments/uh4u2c/participants_losing_their_minds_over_dreams_sot/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

reddit

r/MinecraftChampionship - Participants Losing Their Minds over Dream’s SOT Run

613 votes and 40 comments so far on Reddit

ctommy checking his phone on november 28th

I’m back at it again

BAHAHAHA

Ranboo, running a fever and delirious: the Twitter people. They need to know how much I love men.

hmm yes floof

he’s a toxic dnfer ur honor

reblogs appreciated,,,

That's so cute I love it

Childhood memories

[REST OF THE FUCKIN COMIC UNDER CUT TUMBLR IS STILL BROKEN FOR ME]

dream smp characters as tweets part four!

part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4 (here)

I hope Dream is continuing his wheeze laughter with his close friends on discord, I hope he has a lot of cuddle sessions with Patches, I hope him and Sapnap are continuing their journey of making homemade foods/sauces, I hope he is having fun going through P.O. Box while wearing what his fans sent him, I hope he is reading letters filled by fans young and older thanking him for making them happy, I hope he is continuing plans to be ready for when he face reveals, I hope he is finding joy in setting up George’s gift basket for when he comes home, I hope Dream knows he is loved, validated, and deserves so much happiness <3

would you lay on the floor and listen to records with me yes or no

and you know what ill be crazy and say it IDC if closeted people make lighthearted gay jokes and also i know schlannie comfort character jschlatt isnt going to come talk to me about accountability and how to foster a non-toxic community And while im at it im so sorry that someone was hypercriticized for being homophobic to Dream GOOD LORD it must be so hard having thousands of eyes on them picking apart their every word but APPARENTLY if they were in Dream's shoes it would all be different so really whats the problem wheres the gracious apology? and i knaurrrr we all love to cry privileged rich dude on the internet but besides the obvious fact that ummmm You just described half of your Fav CC list, its srsly time you deconstructed this twisted notion that Dream is the second fucking coming of elon musk -- because really im sitting here wondering what lavish luxuries Dream is sitting in as he stews in his dark ass fucking room for a full two years terrified of leaving his home and only experiences the social interaction of his discord friends and every bitch on twitter who has some shit to say, and he cant even trust the people he has on discord to defend him either because here comes dsmp member #33 cranking out a cheap diss for clout -- not that he'd call them out for it. and maybe if u got off ur prideful high horse about being the paragon of virtue then youd be able to actually do something good in the world instead of telling some 22 year old to khs because all ur twitter friends have made him the perfect punching bag for u to take cheap shots off of while u project every issue uve had with another human being onto him (luckily those kind people who doxxed a teenage girl have provided something for you to talk about for 3 years) and you can cry and mald over the fact that Dream HAS done a lot of good for the gaming community and its probably more of a # leftist win ! then youll ever accomplish in your gawddamn life. but umm heres a consolation prize for reading more carrds i guess. and yes, people WERE asking him to come out and if u have selectively chosen to forget that then its a problem with your neurologist and not my fucking issue and ultimately if you are upset with Dream all u are doing is causing urself and others misery by continuing to scrutinize his every act so move on and be above the internet drama like you apparently would if you were Dream.

PLUS, RATIO.