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I can just imagine the cold running down Andrew's spine as he heard Neil's cell phone ring, but no sign of Neil, just his bag and the phone there on the ground

He knew Neil would never willingly leave his things behind, even with all the chaos, he would never leave his bag there. As the realization Neil was probably taken settled in, Andrew stopped to listen to the lyrics of Neil's ringtone, right as it said

'Runaway train never coming back'

And at that moment Andrew knew his runaway train could really never come back. At this point he could be dead already. The thought almost made his heart stop. Neil was smart, he was a survivor, he could survive, he HAD to survive. Andrew cursed himself for the ringtone he had chosen as a way to spite Neil, but now just felt like another one of life's cruel ironies

'Wrong way on a one-way track'

Andrew tried to remember how to breath as he reminded himself thats how it was always supposed to end, he knew this would happen, it was indeed a one-way track, but...it was so early, so sudden. Why couldn't he have more time?? He thought, not knowing if it was about him, Neil or the both of them

Andrew's chest tightened, as a mist of anger and desperation builded up inside him. He felt like he would burst at any moment. It was like a giant hole had been carved on his chest. After so long feeling nothing, having so many feelings at once made him dizzy.

That was when another realization settled in: it had always been Neil all along. Somehow Andrew was dumb enough to fool himself into thinking he would be able to let go when the time came, that he was in control of the situation and Neil was nothing but a distraction, someone interesting to distract him from the fact his whole life felt like a bore. But it wasnt true anymore and it hadn't been for a long time, maybe it was never really true.

Andrew had indeed gone the wrong way a one way track. He knew how this was gonna end, and still he fell into Neil's gravity and allowed himself to be pushed closer and closer everyday. The phone finally stopped ringing, but the song kept playing on his head like a buzz

He looked around again, hoping to find those clueless stupid blue eyes looking at him, but there was nothing, no one. He felt like if he was falling as he stomach sank. It was right then and there he finally admitted something he already had known for a while: he didn't want to, in fact, he couldnt live without Neil. A world without him was just pure hell. Andrew needed Neil as much as he needed air or water

(This wasnt supposed to be almost a fic, but I got carried away while writing, lol. Forgive me for any mistakes, I typed it on my cellphone and english isnt my first language)

Do you ever think about how Andrew called Neil’s phone after he disappeared, but instead of Neil answering, it’s just ‘Runaway train never coming back’ playing on a loop… or are you normal?

Okay, so:

-kiss girls (×)

-make art(×)

-disappear into the forest()

Im only missing the last, but to be honest, Im one step away from disappearing into the forest with a backpack, some books and two cats

(x)

Gennerally ppl say "they desearve each other" as an offense, but with Jeremy and Jean I can confidentely say that they desearve each other and mean it in the vest way possible

They are so caring and loving towards each other, I cant 😭

Thinking about Jeremy watching Jean watch his exy matches and finding the way Jean makes his own commentary endearing. Spending more time watching Jean than watching the actual match. Thinking about Jeremy fighting back a smile whenever Jean makes a grumbly comment about something because he finds it charming now that he's gotten to know him better. Thinking about Jeremy taking eight flights of stairs with Jean because he knows Jean doesn't like elevators. Thinking about the million and one little things that Jeremy does to show that he cares about Jean, and still being surprised when Jean wants to protect him and stand by him.

maven’s live reaction right after witnessing cal and mare’s dance scene

Nora has confirmed that if Ichirou decided to kill Andrew, Neil would scape to Japan, work his way through the rankings of the real yakuza there(the OG Moriyamas, that stayed in Japan and dont keep relations with the USA Moriyamas), and once he got to the top, Neil would start to slowly dismantle the USA Moriyamas' empire brick by brick. Until he ultimately got to kill Ichirou (but only after making him watch his empire crumble and loose everyone around him)

The level of manipulation needed to rise to the top of one the biggest criminal organisations in the world just to get revange against someone like Ichirou is ABSURD

Literally a cold psycho fueled by anger and hatred

We are lucky he is fueled by his love for Andrew, stickball and his team

Neil could really have been a very suave criminal mastermind if he'd chosen to be. I'm rereading the kings men and the whole thing is basically just Neil gently manipulating people to do what he wants them to, and figuring out how to put anyone who won't come around to his way of thinking (Aaron) under pressure so that they just do what he wants. He wouldn't need to be as violent as his father, the guy just knows how to read people and figure out what they want, and what they can't afford to lose. He'd have them eating out of his hand if he wanted to do anything more than play stickball have boyfriend.

find the difference

neil allowing himself to be so easily moved by andrew when he fights tooth and nail against everybody else never fails to make me feel insane. like even people neil trusts / knows have good attentions he fights against, most notably wymack when he gets back from evermore. and then u have neil with andrew who he lets into his space so easily who can push him, pin him, grab him, and neil never flinches and never fights bcus the trust he has in him is so absolute.

i think its a really nice understated way to show the flipside of the whole "hey how'd you get andrew to do this thing?" "oh i just asked" dynamic because andrew is presented as this immovable wall that does what he wants and only what he wants to an unreasonable degree, and then throughout the series you see him "fold" for neil over and over again. so it's very easy to point at andrew and go "hey look at how special he treats neil" but by virtue of neil being the narrator you kinda forget that the opposite is happening as well.

pretentious moment incoming but why is everyone's idea of fashion so fucking boring these days. why the fuck did my manager just ask me "what's with the scarf". "what's with the scarf" fuck man do I need a reason to wear a faggy little scarf now? you could just say "nice scarf man". what's with your attitude

Girl, yess

The way Neil trully cares about Jean makes my heart warm

Like, he makes sure to include Jean on his deal with Ichirou, he offers to ditch the FBI so Jean can process what happened to his sister, he guarantees Jean's abuser will never get close to him again, he always picks Jean's calls (even though he ignores when most ppl call him, bc he actually hates cellphones and calls)

Can we appreciate the fact that Neil answers to Jean calls? Like, Jean is one of the few people that has the privilege to get Neil to pick up his calls

my favourite scene of tsc is when cat saves jean from fans by asking him in french if he wants to fuck and jean is so shocked he just stops functioning and forgets to be an asshole long enough for them to drag him away. 10/10 problem solving from catalina alvarez