Me When I See A Notification From Him:

Mood!

Maybe this therapy shit is working

survived checking my bank account. i deserve a little treat

daily affirmations

- I will own a house and decorate it just like I've been dreaming of for years

- I WILL OWN A HOUSE

- my house will have the cutest decor ever

- I will have the most peaceful house of all time

- house

just wanted to let you know that if you post chubby / plus size / fat people on your ed blog and degrade them to make yourself feel better, you're an absolute piece of shit and I wish you mass hair loss

GUESS WHAT? IT'S TIME FOR A WEIRD METAPHOR TO EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL!!!

The only way I can explain it is this:

I'm in a cage. I built it, I put myself here (perhaps through the coaxing of others, but I was the one to step in). I know it like the back of my hand. Like my own street. I was the one who locked myself in and only I have the key to leave. It's in my hand.

It was kinda nice at first. To sit alone and bathe in my own misery, watching people pass by and never come towards the door. But now I hate it.

"So?" You ask, "why don't you just unlock the door and leave? The option is there."

I can't.

I tremble towards the lock, sometimes I'll even unlock it. But the door stays closed. I will lock it again. And again. And again. And again. And then I'll scurry back to the corner of the cage like a frightened dog, tail in-between my legs.

And nobody cares if I came out. They don't visit. They don't acknowledge or ask why. They won't even spare a glance. I'll be the same person I always was. And the cage will still lie in wait for the next time. The only person who encourages me to leave is a woman who sees many cages, she even unlocked the door from her side and held it open for me. But I remain here.

If I go, I'll be in a world that I watched develop from my corner of my cage, but never really had a part in. Especially before. Especially now. Things I won't understand and people who won't want me. And I'll miss it.

So, I'll just stay here. Until I rot. Perhaps leaving the door open, but always never stepping out.

GUYS GUYS GUYS CHAT JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING JIRAI YURI GAME INCOMING WAHHHH (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

IT'LL BE RELEASED ON ITCH.IO

Reminder for when he “saves” it. He was the one who wanted this, and now he gets to be the hero and win favour with young constituents. Don’t give him the credit for fixing his own problem.

asking for reassurance is so embarrassing 😭