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daily affirmations

- I will own a house and decorate it just like I've been dreaming of for years

- I WILL OWN A HOUSE

- my house will have the cutest decor ever

- I will have the most peaceful house of all time

- house

"and historians said they were bestest of friends" they were. they were both aro/ace and in a qpr

A lot of folks in the notes are saying how this is social anxiety. Lol whatever op was describing is not social anxiety.

They don't like being perceived. Idk how hard that is to understand.

For me, social anxiety is about freaking out over social interactions. Of course, being perceived and judged is a part of it but it isn't the main thing ykwim?

But its different for everyone let's all remember that.

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

How idolising jirai blogs looks like

All hail the angel bat (I am going to make an angel bat oc just you wait)

It’s…so tiring…

Be possessive over me. I like being reminded that I belong to you, that I’m yours alone.

I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

Jiraiblr (and adjacent communities) have a very serious grooming / predator problem

Do not like making posts like this but as an adult who sees and engages with a lot of minors on here, I have witnessed very disturbing things, and recently something extremely illegal, horrific, and harmful to the child in question, who I will not name in this post. Please do not mention them or any other minors you know of that this has happened to or are that are especially vulnerable to these approaches/attacks that have been happening.

There are adults approaching young jirai bloggers inappropriately, sometimes explicitly, sometimes not. I see it on the dash and in tags, I see mentions of private interactions, there is no telling what happens in private conversations or on other platforms that has not been shared. They tend to enable the blogger's need for attention and validation or degradation, tendency to self-destruct, and hypersexuality, or desire to appear cute. They target weak points unique to each blogger based on what they post about or reveal in conversation. I've only seen them use anon. I don't know how many people are doing this but I suspect in some cases the same person is behind more than one.

This is intolerable. I have never been in this situation except with personal friends that I've been able to protect, so I don't know what to do, and I fear that plain reporting will just result in blog terminations and the young bloggers will come back and be preyed on again or contact their abusers on other platforms and the abuse will continue.

I know a lot of other jirais are kids, and don't call this behavior out clearly enough; they either envy it, comment the creepiness of it, or try to comfort and be positive to the victim. It's not their fault, they're kids too, it's not their job and they aren't expected to know how to deal with this, but this is not enough: You need to know that this is not something to envy, it hurts your friends, and if it happens to you, it will hurt you.

These are bad people, and not in a fun way that we can romanticize. They are the kinds of monsters that give you these problems to begin with. They don't love you. They don't think you're special or cute. They think you're weak. You're not, you are just innocent, and they are pathetic and have to resort to hurting innocent children that already have mental struggles.

To other adults in this community, no, it is not your job to parent random kids online, but it is your moral responsibility to tell someone in power, confront a predator if you are safe to do so, loudly condemn this behavior, tell people this isn't okay, and act as a model of how adults should treat kids — which doesn't include grooming or being a bystander to abuse.

As a whole we should discuss this more for the sake of prevention and awareness so that it does not keep happening. It has been getting worse. I do not care if it is a staple of Toyoko Kids to be involved in underage activity; It's bad when it happens to them, and it's bad when it happens online.

This community cannot become a haven for content and abuse like this. It's not about subculture, it's about decency. It's not cute, aesthetic, or a quirk of your personality to engage in this, endure this, or be silent about this. It's child abuse.

If that doesn't convince then you, only for selfish reasons; if this becomes too big of an issue, Tumblr will crack down even harder on Jiraiblr and blast it off the platform for safety and legal liability. So if you want a community, keep predators out of it, prevent children from being abused, and be vigilant about it.