Mood!

being 25 is like: im dying. im living my best life. im a failure. my life hasnt started. everything interesting has already happened to me. im achieving my dreams. im cutting my hair with kitchen scissors. im starting a skincare routine. im a corporate professional. im a sellout. im out of groceries. i have too many groceries. i am never going to be successful. i am going to win a hugo award before im 30. im crazy. im boring. i need to finish this essay. i need to finish this story. i need to start a newsletter. i need to start tweeting more. i need to stop tweeting. i need to ghost all my friends. i need to tell my friends i love them. i need to find a new apartment. i need to take out the trash. i am the trash that needs to be taken out. 

Déanist roll call?

It might just be my depression making me feel isolated but I feel like the Déanic / Filianic Ekklesia has been rather quiet and sparse lately. I know we've had some people leave the faith and blessings to them, I'm curious how many of us there are.

Please reblog if you are Déanist and/or Filianist. :) might be some of you I don't already know.

If you experience same-sex attraction, what are your feelings about the word "queer"

i've never had such fake, shallow friendships as i have with white, liberal, "queer" friends. people i've supposedly been close with for years consistently left me on read when i texted them at 4am in hospital scared and alone with critically low sats because they didn't have the energy for emotional labour. you have to ask to vent, respect triggers, never ever traumadump, so real conversations are difficult because nobody wants to complain - unless, of course, it's related to identity somehow - you can say you had a bad day because your teacher is transphobic, but not because you had an argument at home or threw up or just didn't feel well - none of it comes from genuine concern but instead the rules and norms within your online community. constant reassurance, validation, knowing there's no possibility of a nuanced discussion on anything other than your approved safe topics. attempts at open communication feel sanitized and are laced with therapy-speak, not reflecting real human emotions, but "i sincerely apologize for crossing your boundaries" because it's ideologically wrong, the undertone is 'please don't make a callout on me', not 'i'm sorry', abuse and manipulation are wrong because they get you ostracised and put on blast publicly by your friendship group so any little disagreement comes with a flurry of reassurance that you aren't an abuser, and they still call you they/them behind your back, they still ask your other friends what they think of your opinion on ace discourse, have you crossed the line yet, can we cut you out yet, it's so fucking tiring and there's no space for real connection or humanity in all of it

Arizonans, help save reproductive rights in our state

A group, Arizonans for Reproductive Freedom, is hard at work to get an initiative on the ballot for November to amend our state constitution to include a right to reproductive freedom for every individual.

They need 356,467 signatures by July 7 to get it on the ballot.

You must sign in person. Fortunately, events are happening at offices and businesses throughout the state, mostly in Tucson and Phoenix, to aid this effort. You can find each one and volunteer to collect signatures at https://azreproductivefreedom.com/.

Because Maricopa County has the most people, I’ll copy that county’s locations below, but OTHER COUNTIES HAVE SIGNING LOCATIONS AVAILABLE AT THE LINK.

Maricopa County

Stop Dark Money Office 514 W Roosevelt St M-F | 10am-2pm

Maricopa County Democratic Party 1301 E Washington St M-F | 12pm-4pm

Brick Road Coffee 4415 S Rural Rd Suite 10 M-F | 7am-10pm Sa-Su | 8am-10pm

Copper Star Coffee 4220 N 7th Ave M-Su | 6am-5pm

Gracie’s Tax Bar 711 N 7th Ave Tu-Sat | 4pm-7pm 10pm-1am M-Sun | 4pm-7pm

Monsoon Market 3508 N. 7th St. Suite 140 M-Su | 12pm-5pm

Urbana 44th St. #202 M-Sa | 10am-6pm Sun | 11am-5pm

Urbana Scottsdale 44th St. #202 M-Sa | 10am-6pm Sun | 11am-5pm

Hidden Track Bottle Shop 111 W. Monroe Street #120 M-Sa | 12pm-6pm

Foothills Recreation & Aquatics 5600 W Union Hills Dr Sunday | 8am-11am

Toasted Mallow 1034 N Gilbert Rd #3 M-Su | 12pm-8pm

Salon D’ Shayne 1616 N Central Ave #101 Hours vary

Changing Hands Bookstore 300 W Camelback Rd M-Su | 10am-8pm

Thunderbird Lounge 710 W Montecito Ave M-Su | 4pm-2am

Tres Leches Cafe 1714 West Van Buren Street M-F | 8am-2pm Sa-Su | 8am-8pm

when you haven’t prayed in a while

people who live in areas where there are native lizards should never take that for granted. you can just go outside and see a little guy hanging out. what’s better than that?

Don’t be afraid of releasing the old, the new journey has already begun.