10/17/20
~A call to God~
Today was the day where my strength was tested. It took a lot of faith to face with the obstacle that had came my way. Faith had me recognize that this time I needed  to put a lot of trust in God. To know that there is a kind of loving power out there that is stronger then the evil. Oh how the wicked on this planet tries to normalize itself. Lurk around the corners of the outside world. But there is protection out there. Somewhere you can call out on. Something that can be right by your side, and that’s the power of God. At this point in life. I just put all my faith and trust in the lord, because in the end.. he’s the only one you can ever trust in this lifetime and the next.
Planet Jupiter 9/26/22 8:08 pm.
Colette, tr. by Matthew Ward, from The Collected Stories; “The Accompanist, //Charles Bukowski
Sunday Oct 11, 2020
Today I’m feeling let down and upset. I’m usually a person who suffers in silence. I don’t honestly trust anyone to talk to. Because every time I try to do the right thing and speak what’s on my mind in return I get judgment. Or no one understands. People tell me to always make sure to talk to someone when I’m feeling let down. But how can I? When in the end I just get disappointed by the responses I receive. Let down. Dear God help me! .-.