Was Just Thinking About How Unlike Kim Roksoo Who Has People In Both Worlds Who Know Of The Life He Has

Always thought of the idea that Cale, despite being oblivious to everything else, is actually extremely aware of his surroundings all the time.

And maybe this was discovered by the kids when they found out that he wouldn't get jump-scared no matter what they did (he tried to act scared for them but his stoic face couldn't quite convince anyone).

And everyone around him thinking how it must be some sort of trauma response to staying in the front lines of every battle ever.

(They aren't exactly wrong about the trauma part)

A subconscious habit developed as Kim Rok Soo, just another means to live another day.

But now, he lets himself space out for longer durations. Not observing his surroundings like a hawk and just, well, breathing.

And when he does blank out, he ends up flinching at almost every sound ever.

And that led to the belief that their vigilant Commander carries such a burden on his shoulders that he sometimes doesn't even notice his own family walking upto him (who are mostly trained individuals, or a traumatised high schooler, or two kittens–who all had to learn to walk stealthily just to survive, much like he once did).

Ironically, he always gets scared whenever Ron enters, even more so when he's already aware of the butler's presence.

The old man sometimes deliberately makes no noise when entering, just to see Cale flinching so hard and then acting nonchalant afterwards.

But Cale doesn't dislike it. Simply blanking out amidst this comforting safety that he had always wished for. With his family always beside him.

not even just that, i'm in the 400ish chapters and han yoojin deadass tripped bc the building was shaking while checking on song tae won who was taking a bath?? butt naked??? and bro deadass gets up from the tub??? butt naked??? to steady him???? and proceeds to use his body to shield him from the shaking building???? this was described as 'almost as if in a hug' btw??????

It probably sounds like a joke or an exaggeration when fans of The S-classes that I Raised talk about how homoerotic this non BL novel is, but reading this book is wild sometimes. Yeah the main character can't go more than like two chapters without emphasizing how hot the men in his life are, but also some of these characters will have the most intense yandere thoughts about about him. The guy who the main character considers the peak of male perfection deadass thinks to himself "Even if Han Yoojin were collapsed completely, the process of pulling him together and setting him back on his feet would certainly be enjoyable" like he's the black bellied CEO male lead of an imprisonment manhwa

let's give him a reason to be scared 🤭

Cale Henituse survived an abusive household, a terrible orphanage, an apocalypse, monsters, several wars, gods messing with his life and dragons, alternate universe but if you ask him what is the scariest thing for him, he'll probably answer Ron.

I want him to talk to his 7 year old self so badly

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Kid!krs: why is he so mean to me

Krs: *sighs with a bittersweet expression*

Kid!krs: *tearing up* why can't he like me like mom and dad did???

Krs: it's not your fault, he was a terrible person.

Kid!krs: *sobbing atp* what if he's right about me

Krs: absolutely not, don't believe anything that scumbag says. He ruined his own life and is now poisoning yours, don't let him. You will be safe soon, I'm sure.

Kid!krs: *nods and wipes his tears and snot on cales shirt while he's embracing him*

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Choi han, who saw all of this: ...why do you call yourself trash if you know you're not supposed to believe that piece of shit?

Krs: I never believed him, me being trash was because of my own failures. It has nothing to do with him.

Choi han: please stop doing that

Krs: doing what.

Choi han: you've never failed anybody, that sort of thing has always happened in situations outside of your control! Please open your eyes for one fucking sec-

Krs: i know

Choi han: then why-

Krs: because i failed myself, that little kid spends the rest of his life mourning his dignity because I didn't have the will to confront that piece of shit. And when i did, it was too late.

Beacrox is smiling so much more now:

hjyj yuri

umpopular oppion: no, cale does not like clopeh

and will not do so in the future

hear me out

currently reading chapter 206

"Why would he care about the people who tried to kill him? What about the people in his territory that were hurt because of them?"

All this /probably/ has some relation to actual situations he had in earth 1, very likely so

It might be as a result of his trauma the reactions to who is friend and who is foe are extremely intense. He will never friend those who hurt or attempted at hurting his close circle or underlings, it is most likely that the only end they will see is death, though how long till it comes depends on how long he will use them, his foes will never be friends. Ever. 

On Mary: a note

note on describing mary's voice from the perspective of an in-universe character (who wouldn't know what a 'google translate' voice is)

“[a] child with a stiff voice ... [like] her vocal cords can no longer fluctuate.”

the implications? many, and all with great potential for fics.

A new understanding of cale’s character

cale henituse is a depressed bastard (we kind of been knew) am currently rereading the novel, so this time I noticed a tea symbolism, where the after the first time ron gave cale lemon tea and he drank it life's kind been giving cale lemons ever since. so of course it got me thinking more about the relationship between cale and ron and find that it would be interesting to study.

what kim rok soo observed of the relationship between og!cale and him was that ron didn’t have any particular like for cale, so could he as cale also operate under that or..?

HYJ: *Looks SHJ up and down* You look like daddy material. SHJ: A sugar daddy? 😏 HYJ: *Collecting children like Pokémon* What? 🤨