Yeah Being Hungry Sucks But Have You Ever Been Full? Shit Feels Nasty

175cm / 42.6kg (94lbs)

Help i cant stop binging i just keep eating and eating

I have to go to university tomorrow and none of my clothes fit anymore (really, i dont exagerrate)

I am so fat and i still keep eating, i never stop

I hate it, i hate myself, can somebody pls make it stop

My June Rules to lose 15 lbs🌸who’s trying this with me? Also ignore the gummy worms their like 100 cals for 2 :(

Sooo

At the moment, i am almost back at my highest weight. I used to feel horrible about that and somehow, i still do.

On friday, i binged and felt totally unmotivated, i thought that i just fucked up another day

However, on Friday evening, i decided to save the day. i ran a half marathon even though nobody believed that i could Do it (well, i believed in myself at some point, but neither my family nor my friends, except for one, thought that i could do it).

I am amazed by what my body is able to do if i fuel it properly.

This is why i will now try to stop obsessing over my enormous thighs and start training, challenging and improving my body rather than wanting a lower number on the scale

Idk if this makes any sense, just wanted to vent lol

Lol my family is so fucked up

My dad just yelled at me for loading the pen for my tablet. Not even 30mins later He asks me to proof- read his Email.

My brother forbid me to enter his room when he was watching a yt Video. An hour later, he asks me to help him with his homework.

My mum shames me for snacking and eating too much at a time. The Same day, she worries about me skipping meals and exercising obsessively

Once i am skinny, they will regret treating me like a back-up Plan, a second choice and a useless object. Once i am skinny, i'll male Sure they die of regret

Summer’s Dream - Cathy Cassidy

Well we all know that no matter what i do, ill binge on the cake when Im alone

So my father just forbid me to eat cake on Easter Sunday because it has too many calories

FIRST, I know the calories, he knows nothing about them

SECOND I am at a normal/healthy weight, he is oberweight

THIRD, I can make myself purge, ge doesnt

FOURTH, I will go for a long run in the evening

FIFTH I wont eat breakfast on Sunday

But well, i guess ill just watch everyone eat cake because now there is a 0% chance that i will eat cake in Front of my father

Lmao i wish i was dead

why i enjoy working out as an ana

reason 1: lose weight

obviously you burn calories while working out.. this helps you achieve a lower net cal number and in the end a lower number on the scale

reason 2: something to do

when im bored i tend to eat. but if you get yourself out of the kitchen and into a gym or where ever you choose to exercise. its a distraction that will ultimately be good for your health and weight

reason 3: the showers

this helps me to get into the shower when my depression doesnt want me too. for me getting into a long cold shower after working out makes me feel hydrated and calm. cold showers burn more calories and showering also gives you something to do besides eating

reason 4: feel better about yourself

whenever i binge i make sure to exercise a lot. it makes me feel like even tho i just ate a lot im losing alot of those calories right now

*Motivation*

Hey Fatass .

We're you thinking about eating? Well read this !

Look at you ! Look at youself !

YOU ARE FAT !

You know why ? Because you eat all the damn time , that's why.

You need do get off of your lard ass and do some exercise. 100 jumping jacks ,80 crunches ,50 sit ups ,40 squats , 30 lunges 20 mountain climbers & 10 push ups. It'll feel so much better than eating.

Don't eat that ! Don't you know what food is?It's just a nice way to see fat ! You know who likes fat ass girls? NOBODY! You can't control yourself , can you ? Whatever you see , you just put it in your mouth, you don't care , that it just turns into fat.

Don't eat that, do some exercises or drink some water. I promise it's better than eating, whatever you were just thinking about it.

The carving will pass. I promise.

Don't eat you'll be happier.

💫🌿🌺 tips for being ur best self this summer 🌺🌿💫

hey friends, here’s a little post of tips… consider it a less harmful alternative to the hundreds of posts floating around giving advice on restricting and purging. 

🌺 FEELING DIZZY? IS YOUR VISION BLURRY? GOT A HEADACHE? put down the diet soda and drink some water. in any case, you should regularly be drinking water throughout the day. remember, your body can only absorb about 500ml of water at a time, so don’t try and chug your ‘daily requirement’ all at once. you should be aiming for 2L a day. drink up, it’s hot outside.

🌿 DON’T LIKE WATER? jazz it up. put some fruit in it. put some mint in it. lemon + mint + flat or sparkling water = your new lemonade ( NOTE: try not to drink lemon/other citrus-infused water on an empty stomach, the acid will start to eat away at your stomach lining ) strawberries + frozen blueberries + raspberries = also a great combination, as well as watermelon + basil

💫 GOT A BLAND/REPETITIVE MEAL PLAN? take a multivitamin. they come in all kinds of forms from capsules to chewables to gummies, so there’s really something for everybody. taking a multivitamin regularly will help you get the vitamins and minerals that you’re lacking. something to also consider is taking vitamin B6/biotin for your hair and nails, and vitamin D to help lose belly fat.

🌺 WORRIED THAT YOU’LL BINGE? try a meal replacement powder mixed with water or almond milk. not only are they meant to be filling and curb your appetite, they’re also formulated to include most/all the nutrients that would have been found in the average well-rounded meal. the one i personally have is 145kcal per serving and mixed with cold water it tastes just like a strawberry milkshake.

🌿NEED A SNACK? frozen grapes are your new friend, along with frozen blueberries and raspberries. a square of dark chocolate never hurt anybody, and neither did a rice cake with some honey/peanut butter/almond butter drizzled on top. craving something savory? veggie sticks + a little hummus are here to save the day, and if you want something sweet and savory, try a watermelon + feta + mint salad. 

💫 NO GYM MEMBERSHIP? take a walk around your neighborhood. go for a jog. go swimming at your local pool. check out some pilates videos online. try some calisthenic exercises at home, or yoga. even a few minutes of physical activity is better than nothing, and will make you feel so much better and closer to your goals than sitting on tumblr and scrolling through the dash. I mean, you could even scroll through tumblr while you’re out on a walk, if you don’t mind using the data

🌺WORRIED YOU’LL SELF HARM? talk to a friend, or a family member you trust. listen to some angry music. paint a picture, throw some fine china plates on the ground. whatever you do, try to channel your feelings into something other than harming yourself. i know people always say to snap an elastic against your wrist or to chew ice but personally, that stuff never helped me. talking out my feelings and venting to another person, however, did. so really, if you feel like you’ve tried every other alternative and you have no one to talk to–– send me a message, anonymously or not, and i’ll do the best i can to hear you out.