24/08/2021

31 DAYS OF HALLOWEEN ↳ DAY #19: NOSFERATU THE VAMPYRE (1979) • dir. Werner Herzog

“Death is not the worst. There are things more horrible than death.”

My body has died, but I'm still alive Look over your shoulder, I'm back from the dead

LILITH CZAR - King (Music Video)

"I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself."

-Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis

Vampires will be like "It's kinda weird that the gays perceive us as sexy and want to be our sex slaves."

My brother in Christ, Vampires are the gays, have you even read Carmilla?

LILITH CZAR - King (x)

Felipe

Maybe it's hard for you to understand

Understand what it's like to feel the deep emptiness

The pain of knowing you'll never receive that love of fairy tales

of adventure stories

I never saw this love

My mother died when I was a child

My Aunt

The only light

Jumped off a building when I turned 21

Sex was always easy

But love

I thought I would never feel that

I would never receive I never felt anything from anyone

As much as people gave themselves to me

Until I see you

for some reason i knew you were the chosen one

You could love me just as much as I would love you

When you looked at me with indifference

Something inside me died

Everything was you

You are my Religion

My light

My silver sword

You were after all... my obsession

Suddenly living without you was not an option

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I made it this far, right?

So it shouldn't be so hard to relate to others.

But it just feels like there's a glass dome separating me from other people.

I wanted to love Noah more than anything...but my pain stops me.

He's being patient and all, but I don't know how much longer I can hold him.... Heavens I want him so much that my heart even hurts!

But when he touches me I remember them

Not images like those clichés in movies... But I feel the pulling and nausea and everything horrible.

This is so unfair...

So unbearably lonely...

That sometimes I wanted to have wings and fly far away...

Far away from myself.

A Primeira Paixão

A primeira vez que te vi foi como se meus olhos estivessem hipnotizados pela sua beleza. Seus cabelos lisos e castanhos tiraram um véu dos meus olhos.

É como dizem...foi amor a primeira vista.

Você estava no fundo do palco, conversando animadamente. O seu sorriso... brilhante luz. Me senti pequena, incapaz, nunca uma pessoa como eu poderia se aproximar de alguém como você. Doces minutos em que a imaginação tornou tudo entre eu e você possível. Mas quando você saiu pela porta, aquela paixão tão linda tocou o chão da realidade. Depois de você...terra arrasada.

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