sentences from my wip matt/juan hurt/comfort fic that i had a little giggle while writing because matt engarde third person limited pov is one of my favorite writing styles:
- ...he doesn’t know where to put his hands and they rest awkwardly on Matt’s shoulders, and there’s enough space in between them to appease Jesus at a fucking middle school dance. [just to clarify the 'he' here is not Juan]
- ...the guy’s only sticking his tongue in Matt’s mouth and not doing anything with it. He’s like a frog. [this is the same guy as above, still not Juan]
- He slurs out a response that amounts to something something whiskey dick, and he’s in the clear for now.
- Matt’s in a high enough tax bracket that buying everyone in this seedy shithole three rounds of his favorite top shelf brandy wouldn’t make a dent in his monthly earnings, but he’s not the type to turn down free booze.
Fuyuhiko stared back at him, still unable to focus his vision. "You…" Hajime barely kept himself from grabbing Fuyuhiko's hand to try to encourage him. Mikan hadn't bandaged the many, many wounds there, yet. "Yeah. Me."
again, from this writing by @causeitsagame .
'I love you buddy'
'You really are perfect, Bachira'
I know what you guys are.
(quote is a pete wentz livejournal post)
"i am that gasp of breath on your deathbead (stale and panicked) but you're still dying for me. i got a list of things in my head that i miss about you. id love to write them but i dont want to give myself away to you this easily."
-- AA 2-4 SPECIFIC SPOILERS --
No because this is so Enrida. It is so Matt coded. Gasp of breath on your deathbed ???? So on the nose here but like Yeah It's Suffocation. But you're still dying for me ???? And the use of 'for' as a preposition is so interesting because you can take it in the way of "you're dying because of me" but also "you are dying and you're doing it for me. a last act of devotion, even though I don't fucking deserve it." and I think that is so cool.
Things in my head that I miss about you. Present tense. He misses Juan in the here and now. He knows he fucked up. He made the worst mistake of his life and Juan is dead and he can't change that, he can only continue missing him. But keeping it all inside his head is all he's allowed to do. Because he's got an image. He's got their carefully curated rivalry to uphold. He can't reveal it. I don't want to give myself away to you this easily.
hobie motherfuckin' brown!!!!!!
kunigiri has had my heart since like the first few episodes of bllk and i still have faith in them especially after chigiri went to search out kunigami after the bm/mc match like. their story isn't over.
and although yeah this might be kind of unrealistic unless we get both of them playing on the u-20 team at the same time i still want to have hope or at least write a fanfic. because. just.
so we obviously know chigiri's nickname since the beginning has been "princess" and kunigami's goal for himself was always to be a hero which he has since given up/been forced to give up since entering the wildcard, and yes he gets referred to as "cyborg hero" & "cynic hero" etc. but never "hero" on its own anymore.
and because the chekov's gun that is chigiri's acl tear scares the shit out of me, what if chigiri has an outright reinjury or at least the heartstopping scare of one (if chigiri gets hurt for good i won't be able to handle myself) and it's this damsel in distress moment that prompts kunigami to return to his hero identity (because it's still there inside him, he's just buried it out of necessity).
i need this to happen. please. please let kunigami want to be a hero again and please have it be because he wants to protect chigiri please give this to me.
hey, it’s almost christmas!
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