Hot Take But I Lowkey Wish Isagi Just Got Igaguri Out In That First Game Of Tag… I Know It Was Like

I don't even know if you're still in the Matt Engarde hype but oh my fucking god. holy fucking shit. I am obsessed with the thought that this man would rather create a whole persona as an amalgamation of the traits he doesn't see as "acceptable", one who can carry the blow of Celeste's suicide because he's bad and independent and dettached and everything he was never allowed to be, one who can carry the anger he bottled up for the sake of images; the anger rooted so deep, burning him inside out at every ounce fear and the self-hatred and the neglect and the betrayal of being left behind he encounter. I'm going insane.

He sees "growing up" as something bad, as if being a fully separated entity from who nurtured you is shameful, and how this somated with the grayness of Celeste's relationship with him (and the fact all the people in canon she was in a relationship with, romantic or not, borderline or straight-up codependent) heavily implies that she, consciously or not, made him fully rely on her for everything and fed into the image that things should be like that forever: that he would never be someone if not "part" of her. And not to be an Engarde apologist or anything but the knowledge that this is a common strategy for abusers, especially parents and caretakers; to "mesh" with their targets to a point they don't know who they are without them, and how this causes long-lasting identity and self-image issues, much like that dude Matt?? It's driving me nuts.

Just. The littlest, tiniest voice in my head saying that Engarde would rather destroy the already poor image he had of himself as a person and wear the "evil" label like an armor than to acknowledge he might have been a victim won't shut up and i'm very sorry for the lenght of this but i've been running up my walls all day brainstorming about this and i need to sleep. I know this may be far-fetched, so feel free to add any divergences from my biased conclusions if you'd like!

i am always and forever in matt engarde hype anon....thank you so much for this ask that has been on my mind since i got it. your point about his relationship with celeste being part of his urge to "mesh" and stay childlike is really fucking me up. i love it so much it makes different aspects of the whole puzzle click in my head. also "would rather be evil than a victim" i think describes engarde deeply. anyway i just love all of this thank you so much for sharing<333

‘desiree and engarde are siblings and it just never comes up’ remains the funniest ace attorney headcanon because absolutely nothing in canon contradicts it but it’s so obviously completely unintentional. like it is a complete coincidence that these two implied-french brunette biker shopaholic criminals who look similar and have the same colour scheme not only live in the same city but both know phoenix wright. the concept of desiree casually mentioning that phoenix actually represented her little brother last year and phoenix having a come-to-god realisation is killing me

Never forget that his ass goes teehee

a daisho request on twitter !

hey 4 matt engarde fans on this app . i made a shrine for him in my college apartment pls look at he. will probably add more maybe like red stickers and motorcycles and stars just to make it look fancier but here is ver 1.0 !!!!

so ive been playing a lot of baldur's gate 3 recently and after i finish my current playthrough im gonna do a dark urge run but have my tav be Matt Motherfucking Engarde. and I do actually have strong opinions about his class.

wild magic sorcerer . ! because he's definitely a charisma based class and I like to think about how his life might have been affected by the chaos that only wild magic can induce. And I've thought about maybe warlock before but I think it's very important for Matt to be like. The source of his own power, y'know? In line with his acting talent being the thing that got him where he was, like, he was a Child and he was working his ass off, it was not the result of some deity/being of some kind like "hey want some power??"

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Maybe there's something with his backstory like . Something really terrible happens, maybe due to a wild magic effect (scar related? possibly? like that's how he gets his eye scar??) and he swears off using magic for a while but misses the feeling of being able to do great things and in this period of confusion is when he gets approached by some devil (he would be pact of the fiend, fight me) of some kind like "I heard you've been wanting power again?" and that's the kick in the ass that Matt needs to have this resurgence of faith in himself and his natural ability.

He's a performer/entertainer but I don't think he's bard coded y'know? Especially in fantasy land. And Paladin is the only other charisma class and um. No . That's just not him. I could see him maybe taking a few levels in rogue for sneak attack and cunning action type stuff but at his heart he's a magic user, it's intrinsically tied to who he is.

I also think he's either a human or a half-elf (high elf, sun flavor).

something i drew in 2016 but never posted... little me was proud of this,,,

When the only crimes you committed to end your career before it even started were you being a team player who genuinely loved your teammates and being a good guy and ran after a flight risk ,who dove headfirst into what normal people would assumed was a trap straight out of a horror movie, to make sure he was okay.

a young wocky kitaki was most definitely a fan of the nickel samurai and I would like to think that Matt has given him an autographed poster signed "to my biggest fan". they are so Big Brother Little Brother im ignoring canon I don't care