Let’s Draw Wings

Black fins, blue mountains, pink skies (Orcas in Norway) by Koen Hoekemeijer

swimming faster than other people in the pool gives me euphoria and it’s kinda stupid cause I’m not even that fast but also. It feels good. I love swimming, i love being an orca, this is so fun :3

((until dysphoria but I’ll just enjoy the time without it))

I’m sure this isn’t an uncommon sentiment, but I find that, even as a wild, non-domesticated animal, I am (somewhat) glad to have experienced human society.

Don’t get me wrong, I would have loved to be born like my theriform counterparts. I would have loved living as a bird, surviving as one. It pains me that I do not. I long for the anatomy that was never granted to me and the life I feel I was destined for.

But human society has given me knowledge. I might not know how the world looks with shades of UV, but I’m aware of the electromagnetic spectrum. I might not have a hooked beak to tear into my food, but I’ve learnt how muscles work. I would do so much for the chance to fly with my own wings, but at least I know how an airfoil can generate lift. I am able to read books, visit Natural History museums, access the wondrous internet. Human society has satiated my curiosity, stoked it even, and I enjoy knowing what we’ve managed to puzzle out from our world.

It’s also granted me relationships, with both humans and otherwise. One wouldn’t expect a kestrel to wind up with a vulpix, but alas, I love my girlfriend so, so much. My best friend is equally important to me; I don’t think I’d be as happy going to school without her. I also have the internet — those I’ve conversed on here, on Discord. It’s amazing how I’ve managed to meet others with experiences similar to mine! Kestrels are mostly solitary birds, and while I’d have been happy with that life, I do not regret knowing these wonderful people.

As right as it’d feel, living the way a non-human should, there’s a degree of privilege that comes with appearing human-like. It is a misfortune that I, an avian, have found myself in, but it is not the worst fate that could befall me. Not with what it has brought to me.

I can sympathise with the want to separate yourself from it all, and to exist as you were meant to, but there are some things I know I will miss.

Been feeling more bird lately, so I did a little self-portrait!

just watched Arrival with my family i think im insane now (/pos)

made some paper claws today, absolutely love it. Theyre the correct size and everything. They are a bit stiff and fall off quite easily, but they were only ever meant to be temporary anyway. Got really strong phantom claws now, even though i took them off and am currently in my nest. Very lovely, overall :3

Bro switched to eco mode

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if i could purr i think that would fix me entirely

more birdsy stuff;

so i’m definitely an avian hybrid thingy (you know, bird legs, wings, feathers and tail but still humanoid) but i might also be a bird therian? like i can very much see myself as a bird, especially falcons or similar birds and parakeets or similar birds, so maybe something like a cladotherian bird? Idk