Hate To Break It To You But If It Keeps You Up At Night It Still Hurts No Matter How Hard You Try To

“All this talk of getting old, it’s getting me down, my love”

UNWRITE THAT NOW!!

Ouhhh ouhhh ouhhh

Keeping secrets sucks

the more i think about it the more i realize that i truly cannot remember being happy for any extended amount of time. of course there were moments, but nothing long term. and although i’ve never felt happy for more than a day or so at a time, i feel it’s absence constantly.

If the function got dab pen, Björk, and personality quizzes I’ll be there

hey google what do you do when you were supposed to be dead by now but now shit is serious and you genuinely have to consider college and your future

Shed your old skin or die in it

Recently I’ve been feeling so off, and it’s really starting to weigh on me. I know a lot, if not most, of my symptoms are caused by my own bad habits, but I just can’t stop giving into the facade of safety in familiar distractions.

The part that’s affecting me the most is the fact I have just not been able to feel anything for like. Days now. And I am usually a lot more neurotic, but I have just not been able to feel much of anything at all lately, and I’m not gonna lie it’s kind of scary. And the worst result of this apathy, is the fact that I seem to have nothing to say lately. I just feel so much less lively than usual. It’s harder to start and continue conversations with my friends, when I love talking to them more than anyone else, and I feel so because of it. I think I’m able to conceal it relatively well, at least I hope so, but I don’t know. This post also kind of negates the whole secret thing.

This is kind of stupid, I just didn’t have much to say when talking to some friends earlier and it made me sad. I feel so numb Aughh Aughh

Everyday is a loop I’m tweaking

And I’m too stagnant to do anything about it

Whatever we ball