Eughhhhhh

the more i think about it the more i realize that i truly cannot remember being happy for any extended amount of time. of course there were moments, but nothing long term. and although i’ve never felt happy for more than a day or so at a time, i feel it’s absence constantly.

fuckkkv💔

get yourself a good treat

anyway no one fucks with gymnopédie no. 1 like i do

Maybe I do need to chill out

take me out back and give me the old yeller special atp i’m fed up dawg

am i too much or not enough? because i feel like i only ever seem to be one of the two.

i feel like i’m subpar in everything in every way; and i know that almost every person on this damned earth feels the same,

but i can’t seem to shake the feeling—or belief rather—that at the end of everything there’s nothing.

at the end of everything all i have is me. and i guess that’s a reality i have to accept. it is true for everyone that we only have ourselves at the end of the day, but i’m so scared that no matter what i'll always end up alone

Värmland, Sweden (December 22, 2023).

primal wanting save me desperation save me hunger for passion save me