Maybe I Just Want To Be Something That Could Justify My Existence.

All my life, I have been living for other people. Most of the decisions I have made were because someone else wanted me to make them. It's time to start living for myself, but I have no interest in life at all. Killing myself will be the most selfish thing that I will ever do, but at least it will be my own decision.

i am excessive when i love someone and i am cruel when i hate someone. i want to be gentle. i don't want to be this way.

not actually alive, just a corpse walking in a suit of flesh

second choice second choice second choice!! wonderful!! love that for me ! only talk to me when everyone else has to go ! I won't notice ! I dont care ! me ? never !

Me: it's just mild depression, it's not that serious. 🙄 . . .Persistent Depressive Disorder you say? 🤨

Starry Eyed

Watercolor on Black Cotton Paper

2024, 22"x 30"

Myosotis, Forget Me Nots

sometimes i just sit and think. wow i should end my life

I don't know why I'm expected to be a normal, functioning person when everyone around me tried their hardest to stop me from being one.