I used to do personality tests a lot, looking for something to tell me who I really am, an answer that's satisfying.
People would describe me and it never felt real, but who was I to dispute it?
I never felt like I knew who I was and every description of me, from golden admiration to scathing hatred, never felt like it was me.
You are a fever I am learning to live with,
Richard Siken, Crush; from ‘Straw House, Straw Dog’
They aren't going to apologise.
They aren't going to see all the hurt they inflicted.
Nothing you say, will cause change.
To protect yourself, realise that.
That person who seeks retribution, time and love.
Won't ever receive it.
I dont say this to be mean.
I say this to save you from further pain.
Trust me, I tried.
"it gets better" - but i've been this way since i was a child.
*having sex* w-wait... *opens closet, pulls out rope* I was going to use this to kms but like hey *ties u up*
just a little life update: unlovable!
How was your day?
I know I am being obsessive. I know I am truly not anything special to you.
I also know I can’t stop myself from being overly invested in an FP that may not ever feel anything for me.