Just A Little Life Update: Unlovable!

It happened again.

I got excited over a few text messages.

And then,

They stopped.

Honestly,

What did I think would happen.

They will never understand the sadness that you can physically feel in your chest

Me trying to explain to my friend why I felt fine an hour earlier and why I feel bad now (I have BPD):

I’m sorry I’m not good enough

I’m sorry I’m a failure

I’m sorry I will never be anyone

I’m sorry I’m not worth it

I wish I was never born

It breaks my heart knowing there are so many beautiful souls out there questioning their worth because someone they loved made them feel unloveable.

Do forgotten things belong in dreams?

Surely, even the nights that slip away from the mind still yet cling to being.

Why else do we dream of both the most beautiful and the wondrous things?

What was left by another can mean everything to someone new.

New challenge for all my girlies and I

Growing up with an absent father is all funny haha daddy issues until it’s one of those rage filled nights of sobbing wondering why he would subject you to this.