Culture Note Ideas;

yea so what if you speak your target language with an heavy accent?? so what if you screw up grammar??? so what if you stutter and have to ask them to repeat themselves 20 times?? at least you’re speaking and guess what??? you’re doing better than the 40% of the world that only speaks one language so ig you’re pretty badass

my parents were like im going to make a daughter that is so beyond help

“She closes her eyes. He probably won’t come back, she thinks. Or he will, differently. What they have now they can never have back again. But for her the pain of loneliness will be nothing to the pain that she used to feel, of being unworthy. He brought her goodness like a gift and now it belongs to her. Meanwhile his life opens out before him in all directions at once. They’ve done a lot of good for each other. Really, she thinks, really. People can really change one another. You should go, she says. I’ll always be here. You know that.”

— Sally Rooney, Normal People

i'm kinda sad because its been a while since i went out with my "friends"

theyre always going somewhere on saturday nights and i just get so sad because i truly feel like no one wants to hang out with me. so i spend the night thinking about every single time i was with them and wondering if i did something embarrassing or said something wrong.

im kinda addicted to refreshing my instagram feed to see if they're out or doing something . its starting to make me feel sick

but thats okay. i pray that one day ill have a cool group of friends that feels like family. just like how i met your mother , you know?

anyways . im gonna read my book now to distract myself a little bit from this sadness . if there's anyone reading this, i hope you're okay and safe . take care of yourself and dont forget to drink water

:)

the worst part of studying is all the studying you have to do

i always be so hard on myself for no reason like chill tf out bitch we on the same damn team

i am doing my best with the knowledge and resources i have.

i do not need to judge myself harshly and should treat myself with kindness.

it is natural to have limitations; not every limit can be or needs to be altered, and alteration takes time.

it is not my fault that others neglected me, even if i didn't speak up for myself.

i am doing my best with the knowledge and resources i have.

i love that post thats like “never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm” that shit changed my life. every time i feel bad i look at the clock and i’m like Aha It’s 10:26 PM You Cannot Fucking Fool Me

That shit about no one being able to love you until you love yourself is so fucked up like darling I promise you that having people who care about you and GENUINELY want the best for you is going to change your whole life and you’re going to completely relearn what love means and experience what it’s supposed to feel like for the first time . I would not be here without my friends rip to everyone with this mindset

much like jonathan harker i too today feel ridiculous and also uncomfortable