Heh Good Thing I'm Not A Follower But More Of An Observer. But To Say More Would Spoil Future Plans 😈

This is what Narinder (and Lamb) needs. A galaxy load of being the butt of jokes but not enough emotional digging.

We’re having some big feelings rn 🥺

AreyiuguysgettungsickofmyjustpostinhNarihurt/comfortyetimsepfconcious

Now a brother can't help but be curious to what draws you into such dynamics of hatred, chaos and self-destruction. 🤔

Definitely wanna hear about that from someone who loves it.

Sorry to hear about the troubles with your move. Hopefully it will only pick up in a positive light from here.

But I am curious, which couple in fiction inspire you the most?

You know I thought about this an I asked my hubby while we're waiting for the movers and we both have no freaking idea lol.

I've had previous ships but it's mostly what elements attracted me to that ship and then half the time I just make it my own thing. I have elements I like.

hatemance

immortals/time loop with two people stuck together/only one to understand each other

destruction/harm/cannibalism as a form of love

Unhealthy attachment/fear of loss

Sex being less intimate than chaste forms of affection

Usually they want to kill each other/want the other to kill them

But I can't really think of the sources of that specifically besides my own issues and a love of horror/monsters in general

All The Yes!

Angel Dust being violently protective of Husk, and will NOT hesitate!

Started out as a warm up, turned into the project as usual😄✨

Heh, was wondering when this was gonna be updated.

Looks like the (Former) God of Death is about to relish in his favorite passtime. Some people need to learn that eavesdropping is never a good thing lol

Hubris || #2-15

Oh he fucked up big time.

also tysm @omendrawsrandomly for drawing that buff lamb!

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I'm sorry if this is too personal but did you had/have any art trauma caused by art teachers in school? And by trauma I mean some aversion to try learning one thing, because art teacher was just a dick. I have something like that with shading and it still holds after 6 years as a adult and I want to break it, but I cannot force myself to try it again and this holds my proggres as a ,,artist" and that's make me smad. I'm sorry once again if this is too personal or too hard to answer

Yup I did! Tho idk if I can call it "trauma" tbh

Oop I kinda went on a rant sorry lol

I studied ceramics in uni but I did have nude art classes and classes that required detailed art projects.

Although most of my uni time was wasted thanks to covid, I did get harrassed by a few of my classmates and my teacher in my last year.

My classmate had said that my art level wasnt good enough to be in this uni and my teacher yelled at me in the middle of class for like a week or two because I refused his ideas for my projects (he had given me the ok on the design before he changed his mind 180 and started pointing and laughing at me with my classmates while i worked on my ceramic project)

I eventually had to give up resisting because I wanted to pass the class and let him do whatever he wanted. (He legit just put clay on top of my design, smoothed it out and that was it in fact here is the design he gave me the ok to, the middle of my project and the way he stopped me)

After this I basicly didnt do anything more for his class, minimum effort. My days in Uni weren't all bad thank god but I was extremely unmotivated.

After I graduated, I didnt really draw or create much until my love for drawing rekindled with Cult of The Lamb! I love this game and Narilamb too much lmao-

But as for something similar to your experience I would say that I used to play the bass and electro guitar in highschool and we had to perform one day which I chickened out from that resulted in the music teacher getting angry at me. I dont play the guitar anymore :/ But my love for music hasnt died and I am using my love for art diffrently!

I would say that even if certain experiences deviates you from some topics, branches of art or people, dont let it kill your whimsy and ideas. You can always try out diffrent things to find something fun like diffrent styles of drawing, shading or no shading, diffrent mediums like digital or traditional, new or old techniques, weird colors or designs. You can always try out whats popular to see if you like it or not as well. You can also consume a lot of art media, educational or entertainment.

There is so many creative things you can try out, you dont have to be stuck on the past and that one shading idea your teacher tried to teach you ır tried to force onto you. I think you can go back to it after trying out many diffrent things to see if it was the technique or the teacher that ruined it for you.

If it was the technique, there are many MANY diffrent ones that you can enjoy!

If it was the teacher, Im not a therapist so idk what would be the right thing to say but healing takes time, sometimes the things people say never leaves you and sometimes you forget it 5 minutes later. You are a person with the ability to change, learn and grow. The only thing that is in your way is your 'will'. If you are willing to change, even if takes a long time, you will change! But if you dont want to, then no one can force you.

Healing and moving on is hard but not impossible. Dont let an asshole teacher get in the way of your growth ❤️

TL:DR - Fox is right and Ewen/Narinder will have to make a tough decision very soon

Alright gonna drop this here but don't got too much to add because someone else beat me to it and was so on point, I'm annoyed my lack of sleep made me slow on the follow-up.

But the one thing I'll add, at least from my perspective is this; I think the Fox is correct and Lamb fears this fact of sentient nature. In truth, their relationship with Narinder is extremely one-sided, especially from their point of view. Its warranted of course, considering what Ewen was forced to become, all in order to survive. Their concept of romance and a relationship is so warped and skewed that its no wonder they believe Affection Control = Love and Devotion.

The same could be said for Narinder because, all things considered, the guy is a God. His relationship with mortals isn't the same as someone of his own kind, on his own level so his relationship with Lamb is nearly as flawed in its own right. Considering he has something of a personal connection with Forneus, Aym and Ba'al, its safe to assume to some degree, he aware of what it means and how it feels to develop an emotional attachment. It seems that maturity is coming through his relationship with Lamb who is helping him return back to that mentality he had probably before his 1,000 year-long isolation that probably drove him to a deeper level of insanity before his siblings bound him.

Now cutting all this rambling aside, I say the Fox is right in that Ewen's relationship is one-sided because they're only acting in self-interest and fulfilling their own desires at the moment. They keep Narinder under their thumb and refuse to give him the truest opportunity to leave or choose between Power or Connection. By keeping the crown, they know they're stronger than Narinder and can force him to their will, whenever they want. They have all the control in the relationship, but that of course is not a relationship of love or devotion, and the Fox points this out, much to Ewen's dismay and fear.

I think (my belief of course), if Ewen wants to truly know if they are loved, they're going to have to offer Narinder a truly honest decision and follow through with it 100% no matter the outcome, with absolutely no expectations or demands. They need to willing put themselves in a completely vulnerable state and offer Narinder the Red Crown to see if Narinder will choose Power or Love and no matter what he picks, they have to abide by that decision absolutely. In many ways, humility and faith would be the ultimate test of their growth and connection as an Ascended Mortal and a Fallen God

Eh but this is me just rambling and if you think this is bad, should have seen the 9 page essay I wrote and was trying to trim down. >_> I got issues.... lots and lots of issues... but this is damn good shit from @melled42 and I've been foaming at the mouth, waiting for updates like a kid watching Saturday Morning Cartoons!

COTL narilamb comic

Changes part 1, part 2 tomorrow

(all along with wips and stuff a week early on patreon)

Looks like the lamb has a fox friend. we're reaching the last 3rd of these comics, lets gooooo

Alright, since Madam Mel has goated me into revealing my extremely amateurish thoughts, here goes.

I've had my suspicions on how Narinder was able to get a hold of the Last Lamb, and how he was even able to bring it back to life in the first place. It comes with too many plotholes that, thankfully the game leaves open to interpretation so here are my theories and One I think Mrs @melled42 is gunning for.

The first Theory being that Shamura sent the last Lamb to Narinder either intentionally as a show to break Narinder's dream of returning and to accept his fate as being bound to Hell's limbo, or unintentionally as a last way to give Narinder a chance to free himself and repent for his actions of slaughtering unwillingly innocents and to punish himself for the actions he committed against his most favorite sibling. There are words Shamura uses that alludes to the idea that he may have purposely given Narinder the Lamb, the same way he gave Narinder Aym and Ba'al, probably due to how damaged his mind was and how he drifts in and out because of his brain damage. I can go more into this theory because its a personal one of mine and part of my headcanon

However, I believe Melled42 is going for my second theory and one I hope isn't the case (Game-Canonwise) but..... Narinder may have killed the Lamb himself, directly in order to get direct control of the creature's life, to will it for his own purpose. I came to this conclusion because Narinder's ultimate goal was to control Life AND Death, and he never fully achieved the goal, because his siblings stopped him before he could break such a fundamental law of nature. Death is only supposed to go 1 way, so for Narinder to even have the power to perverse such a Primordial Law means he had to have had a direct connection and influence over Lamb (in this case Ewen's) death, to control their aspect of Life and thus, create a creature not bound by the Laws and Limitations Narinder actively sought to break.

All this is to say, the theory is that Narinder intentionally killed Ewen himself to give him life that bounds Ewen to Narinder through the power of the Red Crown. This would explain why Lamb can detach its head and still remain alive and aware, retain all their powers and abilities without aging physically, while also exhibiting God-Like effects such as the black blood or ichor if you will, that leaks from a God's wounds. Lamb wasn't killed by the Headsmen, he was killed somehow stealthily through an act by Narinder himself.

Its extremely twisted, yet right up Narinder's alley. I'm against it personally but fuck it would fit if this is what Melled42 is going for. That the twisted mentality the two of them tend to feed into one another, the act that started all of this, was Narinder killing Lamb to claim their life and soul for himself, before his siblings could get the job done and ruin his plans. I like this, and HATE it because it creates a full circle moment that only adds to the selfish depravity of their natures as a whole, that due to the solitary existence both were forced to endure, the empty, meaningless deaths they were both part of and directly influenced with their actions, connects them both on an extremely primal level where only they and they alone, can understand stand each other completely.

I wanted to keep this grenade tucked away but Madam Mel asked so.... here it is. If I'm wrong, I fully accept it because even I see the cracks in my theory but damnit..... brain is going wild with ideas.

An explanation for the wound on Ewen's, my lamb's neck. I've had this headcannon since first seeing the bishops but it kind of took a life of its own

When you're a power hungry controlling monster but they're way too into it, even for you

patreons got this early

Nice to see someone shares my dynamic desire for these two. The lamb teasing and taunting the sexually repressed cat into taking the initiative in order to bring out his dominant side. Let's Narinder fulfill his desire for taking control and feeling powerful while the Lamb gets the joy of knowing they're the only one that can bring this side out of him and only for them

here, this turned out bad so have it early

Ewen is very good at making everyone else do their work for them. They're just good a murder and manipulation.

remember to kiss your totally not spouse once a day

This made me laugh a lot harder than it had any right to. lol

The lamb likes to tell dad jokes. Here is a collection of some of its best worst jokes

For now, gonna say Narinder shoulda saw the writing on the wall for sure. But I'll chock it up to to sheer desperation and social isolation. Ewen was their only ticket out at the time and despite all his power, he's shown he can't see the future consequences of his decisions

Big Narilamb comic "Distant " p 1/3

Since these are so big doing them one at a time. This one is mostly flashback so it works alone

Driving 10 hours tomorrow, so its going up early so I'll hopefully have comments to keep me entertained.