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New Illustration by Horikoshi for Jump Fest 2024

-but  I  gotta  speak  my  truth.

Izuku, I’m  sorry  for  everything.

The choice of wording used here is something that I find very fascinating. I mean, it would’ve been enough if Monoma simply taunted Izuku by saying that Katsuki isn’t as great as he thinks / a bad hero, by calling their relationship delusional, or by criticizing Katsuki’s abrasive behaviour. Izuku could’ve gotten angry enough to create an opening for OFA to explode from just that alone and we all would’ve bought it.

But that isn’t what happened here. Horikoshi specifically had Monoma mock the fact that Katsuki continues to smile / laugh (depending on the translation) despite causing the end of All Might. That’s the truly messed up thing about all of this. This isn’t just normal playground teasing or jealousy. He’s implying that someone like Katsuki doesn’t deserve to be happy. It isn’t the damaging of Katsuki’s pride, his honour, their rivalry bond, or their shared dream that is presented as being Izuku’s weak spot, but the idea of someone threatening Katsuki’s happiness as a person. Someone mocking the emotional turmoil and resulting strength that Katsuki gained after moving forward.

I think that says a lot about how Izuku thinks of Katsuki. He isn’t just some beacon of victory for Izuku to admire and idealize in his head or a fellow hero to put a lot of expectation on for the sake of chasing after. For Monoma to decide to poke this nerve in particular and for Horikoshi to decide to have this be what triggers him into losing control, the message really seems to be that Izuku just wants Kacchan to be happy no matter what he’s doing in life. Counting by the severity of the situation, he feels this way the strongest out of all other feelings he may have concerning Katsuki.

And that’s just the sweetest thing.

liar

Instead of sleeping, I decided I could try and get used to CSP drawing this thing that I previously did traditionally but also with way less stuff.

Anyway, enjoy!

Due to the fact that I get lucid dreams quite often and they’re always incredibly worrying/anxiety inducing, I have decided that Katsuki gets them too. 

I just keep thinking about Katsuki falling asleep and suddenly he’s in the river, he’s kneeling in the water and his head is aching, he can feel how much it hurts but his mind is muddled and everything is moving too fast and too slow at the same time. The water starts to raise higher and higher until his entire head is engulfed and he can hear the muffled screams of the kids above him. It takes him a few seconds of gasping for air, clutching at his throat and screaming into the water to realize he’s dreaming. The panic is still there, he feels as if this might be in, this time he won’t wake up at all. But he lets his body go, he closes his eyes and allows himself to fall deeper into the river.

He gasps awake. 

He’s awake. It’s fine, he is awake.

He’s still in the river, but he thinks this time, this is real, this isn’t a dream.

But then the river raises once again.

It’s up to his neck, tears streaming down his cheeks and fuck, he’ll stay in this hell forever - constantly tricking himself into thinking he was safe before drowning once again.

He’s dreaming, he knows he is. He tries to look around, to glance down at his fingers and see if there are more of them, to focus on something that would take him out of it before he drowned. 

Suddenly, there’s a hand in front of him.

“Kacchan, are you okay?”

The voice is all he hears.

He knows he’s dreaming, he knows those stubby little fingers in front of him aren’t real, and neither are those worry-filled green eyes.

But maybe he could take this chance, just this once. Maybe, in some universe, this will make things right.

“Yeah, Izuku, I’m alright.”

He grasps that tiny hand.

Suddenly, he’s back in his bed, eyes wide and staring up at his ceiling.

It was okay.

He wasn’t drowning anymore.

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