Will I be too needy and greedy
to be asking for a 50mint long hug?
Cause, I want to be swallowed by the
feeling of warmth in my body
I can feel my heart turning to a stone
Everytime I run towards love, i could
feel my stone cold heart knocking
against my rib cage
it breaks my bones
it hurts a lot
and sit still for a while
until it goes away.
Until I meet someone new
who again makes me want to feel
embrace the warmth.
But the cycle continues.
- James Baldwin talking about Love
Angela Carter, from The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories; "The Courtship of Mr Lyon,"
Virginia Woolf, from a letter to Lytton Strachey (September 1925)
"Bare your soul to me"
-Janet Suhh
“Please stop destroying what is left of your heart by constantly thinking about things that have broken you.”
— Unknown
and I'm not gonna share any of it with anyone
i want romance. i want intimacy. i want the 2 am love making. i want consistency, loyalty. i want the random looks of admiration. i want to know you're just for me. i want date nights. i want love so pure and true. i want it because i can return it.
Sorry to break it to you but you literally have to face your fears and slaughter them. Otherwise you will live a small life that you do not want. You literally have to view your biggest fears and attack them head on. You have to fall into the abyss to find your way out. The easy path does not exist. There is no get out of jail free card. You have to allow yourself to die a spiritual death over and over again in order to reinvent yourself into the person you are actually supposed to be. And you have to be painfully honest with yourself and the people around you. It’s horrible but it’s truly the only way.
“Sometimes not telling people anything is a good thing.”
— Jason Myers
Margaret Atwood, from "Wilderness Tips," originally published in September 1991