长毛是真左派啊，我这辈子都没可能那么左。

friends and partners have asked me before why i need to show them so many movies and so many songs and so many books and why i wax poetics for so long and i have to explain hi hello these were my only companions for so long, this is where i learned how to love, this made my heart sing, this brought me such joy and understood my sadness and held me so tenderly, i need to show you because it’s a part of me it’s a piece of me, it understands me in a way i want you to understand me, it’s one of the ways i can tell you i trust you with this strand of my dna, i offer these pieces of me to you because i love you.

Stained glass window in the Chapel of Trinity College, Cambridge. The college was founded by Henry VIII in 1546.

well.

其实是因为看到了一篇网友疑似女友粉的日志随笔，虽然都没有讲明，但我确实对于别人对他的念想有一些敏锐的洞察能力，或许不该说敏锐，而是太熟悉他的相关事情和字词，又总能在看到疑似段落的时候慢下来仔细读。

看到一个歌名《明日再会》。在听《mad》，想起颁奖礼。羡慕徒弟。想看小林给黄填歌词，顺便想起《最高分数》。

THE SERVANT (1963) dir. Joseph Losey

fuck’d up ship idea from @sun-wukong-brain-rot where tripitaka is just off his shits 

《多得他》的叠词好可爱

This is what my parents did when I was a kid. I got so frustrated and annoyed because all the mental preparation for going out just went to waste. Now they are going to visit and I’m making all the plans. Don’t know if I could manage them successfully!

《烈女》 “处事能干 你叫我手袋党 想框死我形状”。武旦要踩跷，女将军行军打仗穿的是“石榴裙”，骑的是“桃花马”。圣女贞德在画像中也总被套上裙装。社会对女性的想象总是狭隘刻奇。听说《特警密恋》里面有解构、反讽和女足比赛作为重要背景设置，要找来看看。

觉得我认真就是有病 然后又数算我多么一事无成 那是要我怎样？又骂我没成绩又说我努力是有病？背后逻辑到底是什么？

给翻看旧帖的自己：千万不要再回国。记得这次回国回家的遭遇有多难受。身体+精神+work受到多少影响。