Desiredrealityx - 𝑅𝓊𝓎𝒶

*Me waking up in my dr and crying when i realize i finally shifted*

“What’s wrong, you had a nightmare?”

Me: It was a quite long and awful nightmare.

I know love exists because shifters exist and they are traveling the multiverse for their loved ones.

tw - mention of mh, od, ed

i’ve wasted my years wishing i was somewhere else.

i wanted to shift so badly that i stop caring about my life here. i’m not living, i’m just existing.

shifting is a big reason why i’m still alive today but i don’t have a healthy relationship with it. i remember when i gave up on shifting back in 2021 and i attempted to take my own life. i was so hopeless.

five years of shifting and i mini-shifted(?) once. i’ve wasted 5 years of my life to the desire to escape. i could’ve studied and went to college but i didn’t. why would i, when i can just shift? but i couldn’t shift and i wasted my time. shifting never solved my problems, only helped me escape. it didn’t heal my depression, anxiety and ed. it just gave me hope. it was just a distraction from my sad life.

i want to be happy here, i wanna stop wanting to escape. i want to get a life. i’m almost 21 and i’m a mess. my life is a mess.

i’m going to change that. i’m going to appreciate this life and manifest making it better. i’m giving life another chance. i’m going to change myself and my life.

is this giving up on shifting? i don’t know, maybe. i’m forever grateful to know about shifting but i just really need to change the way i view shifting. i need to change my life first but i can’t give up on shifting. i have to shift.

“i have to! because if i don’t, that means all the damage i got isn’t good damage, it’s just damage.“

i’m going to start appreciating my life. i’m gonna start living. for most my whole life i was just existing but im gonna change that now.

this shouldn’t be just my “current reality” or “original reality”. this should be a reality that i enjoy.

i’m not gonna wait for shifting just to live, i’m going to live now.

UPDATE: i hate this reality nvm

I'm back bitches (kinda)

you guys need to forgot the word "trying”. ERASE IT!

you’re not trying to shift, YOU ARE SHIFTING!

“who are you shifting for?” me.

Maybe i should give up

Spent 6 hours at the ER, got my blood tested twice, ECG twice, xray for my chest. Only for my results to be clean!!! My chest still hurts and now I’m convinced it’s because I’m still in this DAMN REALITY im gonna lock in and leave for real this time

There is no ‘original reality’ you are not stuck here. You found shifting for a reason and YOU WILL MAKE IT. Failure does not exist.

uh... hey

babes, PLEASE, stop putting people who’ve already shifted to their DRs on a pedestal. like, they’re literally just people like u???? why on earth are you doing this???

it’s honestly insane how many people on shiftok (or even some here on shiftmblr) put others on a pedestal as if they’re gods

i know, i know, the term "master shifter" and the idea of someone who's shifted to their DR a million times makes them seem "grand," but they're not. that’s right—you read that correctly: they’re not. even you 🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼 can be a "master shifter" one day — or rather, you already are .

pleaseeee, babe, don’t do this to yourself, okay? 🎀🎀🫶🏼🫶🏼✨️

mwaaaah, mwahhhhhhh 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋